I’ve been feeling down and thinking abt harming myself and having those thoughts that I shouldn’t have and I feel like it would be better off if I’m not even here. I’ve also gotten quieter and more anxious to speak to simple small groups or small chats with friends I will feel anxious and scared. I will also have random episodes where I just feel like I cannot breathe or start feeling panicked or scared out of no where I’ve been feeling like this for 2 years already
Hi @engagedfrog8923.
Thank you for sharing this with me, it isn’t easy to open up about something like that, and I am glad you did.
First, I want to gently check in with you. What you shared about having thoughts of harming yourself and feeling like you’d be better off not here, I want to make sure I understand how you’re doing with that. Are these thoughts coming up a lot, and have you done anything to act on them?
Beyond that, I do want to understand what’s been going on for you more broadly. Do you have a sense of what’s been making you feel so down? Sometimes it helps to try to trace it back, even if there’s no single clear reason.
I also noticed you mentioned becoming quieter and more anxious around people, even in small groups/with friends. Has anything happened that might have made you feel less safe or comfortable around others, or did it just gradually creep up on you?
You shared that you’ve been carrying all of these (low mood, anxiety, panic episodes) for about two years now, that’s a long time to be going through this. Have you been able to speak to anyone about it before, whether a counsellor, doctor, or even someone close to you?
Regardless of where you’re at with that, I want to share some resources with you, so that you know there are people you can reach out to anytime, especially on the harder days:
- SOS (Samaritans of Singapore): Call 1767 (24/7)
- SOS CareText: WhatsApp 9151 1767
- National MINDLINE: Call 1771 or WhatsApp +66691771
You don’t have to go through this alone.