Originally I had to meet someone at 4pm I told my mom she said okay,But they decided to meet at 12pm instead so I said okay sure without telling my mom.I woke up and showered everything was okay until I told my mom that I needed to meet someone at 12pm.All of a sudden she said “HUH 12pm!? I thought you were meeting them at 4pm! I thought I could bring you to your cousins house.Why didn’t you tell me before? I’m not scary dont be scared of me just tell me how you feel do you all even think of as a mom? Your father is better then me right? That’s why you love him more then me.One day I will leave this house way longer then I did before.I think its better if I leave since you all don’t like me.as she’s frantically cooking. “This is all I could cook you should’ve told me sooner then things wouldnt be so troublesome.” And all she cooked for me was some seasoned rice with smashed garlic and fried seaweed chicken. Whatever i say i go out i come back i see her with wallpaper “Come and help me” she says “okay” I reply because ik what she will say if I say no. Mid way as we were doing the wallpaper she tells me to step aside so I do.All of a sudden she throws the wallpaper and crumbles it up. “Why are you acting like this!? Your acting like you didn’t even eat!? Did you go to work or something?? Have more energy?? Don’t be scared of me im not scary. I guess your father is just better then me right? Ah your sister and brother have no respect for me.only you. Yeah because I still think your a good mom. Other times she will will try to argue with me or my siblings. Saying that I’ll end up just like my father.im only 15 I want this to end.
Hello @user4784 thank you for sharing this here. It sounds like you’ve been dealing with a lot at home, and honestly, it makes total sense that you’re feeling drained and just want things to stop. No one your age should have to go through that kind of emotional pressure every day.
From what you said, it feels like your mom gets upset really quickly and says things that probably hit you hard, like comparing herself to your dad, or saying you love him more, or that she might leave. That kind of stuff can really mess with your head, especially when it happens often. It’s not fair, and it’s not your fault.
You’re not wrong for not wanting to argue or for being quiet when she’s upset. You’re just trying to get through the day without making things worse and that takes a lot of strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it.
And I get that it’s confusing too. You probably care about her, but at the same time, her words and actions really hurt. Both can be true. You can love someone and still feel hurt by the way they treat you.
You shouldn’t have to deal with this alone. Is there anyone you trust maybe a teacher, school counsellor, or another adult who you can talk to? It might help just to have someone on your side who can listen and support you without judgment.
You don’t need to have all the answers right now. What you’re feeling is completely valid, and you deserve to be heard, respected, and taken seriously.
If you ever want to talk more, or figure out how to get support, I’m here for you.
Hi there, thank you so much for sharing this with us.
What I’m reading sounds like a very emotional outpour from your mother, and it is a lot!
First off, I care about your safety, and mental and emotional wellbeing. Would you be able to seek some support in school or other adults in your extended family perhaps? I understand that it’s a tricky situation because you live with your family and are facing this on the daily. Otherwise, do you have a safe and quiet space at home eg your own room to seek refuge in when exchanges get heated?
The way your mother’s emotions had been conveyed to you and your siblings is hurtful and erratic, and I imagine it’s difficult to feel safe at home, with little stability and predictability about your mother’s state of mind. I assure you that your feelings of how all this isn’t “normal” are completely justified, and I encourage you to carry on with your day and other more nourishing activities even as your mother might guilt trip you into not doing so.
We will be here to hear you out, in the meantime please take care and stay safe 
Dear @user4784
Thank you for writing to share about how challenging your home situation is. I’m glad you reached out and sought help to figure out what you could do. Understandably it is affecting you and to me it does sounds both confusing and overwhelming.
You shared that your mom is easily triggered; one moment she is cooking for you, the next moment she’s upset because there was a change of plans, and she jumped to the conclusion that she was not loved by her family. On other occasions, she compared herself to your dad. Please know what’s happening would be hard for anyone to handle or navigate, and it’s especially hard at 15. I fully get it when you shared you feel tired and wish for the unpredictability to stop.
Do consider speaking to your school counsellor for immediate assistance. I believe they can support you by providing a safe space and they may have access to resources that could help. For example, you could learn techniques you could use to protect your own mental health.
May I also suggest that you approach a trusted family elder / relative who cares about your family and could intervene by speaking to your parents. There may be underlying issues behind the current family situation.
As you navigate this challenging home situation, please remember it is not your fault and your parents are not your responsibility. Please continue to take steps to take care of yourself. Keep reaching out here for support too whenever needed.