honestly havent been feeling too well as usual. nth new at this point but it feels like as each day past, i am more and more ready to go. Sometimes I really want to talk to someone and say that “uk, i’ve been feeling really shitty. Im struggling with suicidal thoughts and sh etc.” I really just want to talk but I can’t bear to text or tell my friends about it because they are all stress about their own things like assignments etc. then my next option is my family. but how do you tell someone who gave you your life that you dont want it anymore. idk it feels really weird and my mother isnt all for the mental health things. she dont understand and will say that im prob just acting for attention. my sister also cant relate much regarding mental health. I feel so alone in this ■■■■ that I was searching for location to just maybe jump and end it all. I found a good place yesterday night and just stood there while all the memories of my life just replayed. throughout the 1-2 hours I was there, I was truly contemplating if i should. i mean…in a way the answer is yes but when? Idk…I feel so alone and tbh the mental health shits that the school promotes are all just for show. I am so disappointed and lost. I also cancelled my counselling session today because idk…ik theres no way he can help me…every session i get asked the question “how do you want me to help you”…honestly the answer is “I dont know”. at this point am i even hoping for a recovery? I dont think so. I just want someone to talk to me and I really wished I could talk to my friends about the things that is going on in my life but i can’t bring myself to…furthermore, ive been isolating myself from others. I hate being alone but i feel like i need to isolate when things get bad and i feel like my friends are mad at me for doing so. maybe they think im acting or whatever idk. but i just want to say that im trying my best already but its just not going well. Anyways, I just hope everyone stays happy even without me around.
Hey @user1321 ,
Thank you for sharing your thoughts. 
I hear that you’re not really feeling understood by your family, friends and even your counsellor.
I’m curious to hear more about what you’re going through and what you need to share in order to feel seen?
Hi @user1321, it sounds like you’re really struggling, my heart goes out to you! It sounds like there’s been a negative spiral of wanting to reach out to people to feel heard, but also not wanting to cause them pain/trouble, which then reinforces the cycle of isolation.
Sometimes this cycle can feel impossible to break out of, but I want you to know that even the smallest act of trust can help tremendously. I think your friends sound concerned for you, and want to be there for you. Maybe you can ask yourself, what would have to change in order for you to let them in? Maybe even a small step, like sharing that you’re actually going through a hard time, which is why you’ve been isolating more.
Hey, I’ve attempted b4 n sh b4, but ive recovered from them already. Feel free to chat. Pls continue ur counselling tho
Hi @user1321
Thank you for reaching out very courageously. I’m sad to hear that you’re feeling this way. I believe you are going to through a lot and its understandable to feel overwhelmed. Please know that you are not alone. Just look at the number of folks who have responded to your post - people do care for you and want to help you. Many among us speak from experience having gone through tumultuous periods in our own lives and overcoming them over time. It is said its always darkest before dawn so your situation will get better - please stay optimistic. 
It would be good to speak to your counsellor soon. I am glad you have already reached out for professional support. Even if you feel uncertain about counselling, consider giving it another chance. A different counsellor might approach things in a way that resonates with you. Many schools and universities have counselling services which offer individual, and group counseling tailored for students facing emotional challenges. Develop a safety plan with counsellor detailing what steps you will take in future should you feel suicidal again. Reflect on your life goals and identify your life purpose and values.
Connect with Peer Support: Sometimes, talking to someone who has gone through similar experiences can be helpful. Look for peer support groups which focus on youth mental health and offer confidential counselling services.
Utilize Helplines: If you’re in immediate distress, consider reaching out to a helpline. Organizations like the Samaritans of Singapore provide 24/7 support for those in crisis and can be reached by calling 1767.
Express Yourself Creatively: Writing down your thoughts or engaging in creative activities can be a way to express what you’re feeling without the pressure of a conversation.
Do enjoyable activities to rekindle joy in your life. What do you enjoy doing? Dedicate time and develop friendships with others who share the same hobbies and enjoyable activities. Design your life - actively chart out your goals and actions plans to achieve them. Get started.
Consider Talking to Trusted Friends: While you may feel hesitant, sometimes friends can surprise you with their understanding and support. You might find that they appreciate your honesty and want to help.
It’s crucial to remember that you’re not alone in this, and there are people who care and want to help you through these tough times. Please take care of yourself and reach out for the support you deserve. You are deeply precious. Take baby steps forward to improve your mental health day by day.
hey @user1321. thank you for sharing. i’m sorry to hear what you’re going through. i’ve been there too… having such thoughts and not knowing who to tell it to. being asian… my family also does not buy into the mental health thing much. what i’ve found personally helpful during my mental health recovery journey is reddit. i’m aware that it’s a platform that has gotten some flak… but in the right groups, it is actually a place to get good social support from people who are or have gone through similar experiences and feelings. there are groups dedicated for specific mental health struggles, or just support groups in general. it’s helped me a lot with my journey, and i hope it can help you too. feel free to reach out if you’d like to know more.
i know how hard and hopeless it looks like right now, but i just want you to know that you deserve to live and you deserve to be here. you have been strong and i know how hard you are trying. things will get better 
Hey @user1321 .
Just wanted to say that life can get unbearable at times. Life would seem extremely hopeless in that you just cannot find joy in whatever u do. However, everyone would have a tiny little something to run towards. This can be something like a hobby, a career, a person etc. I’m sure you have something like that too.
just curious, how did u attempt? glad that you’ve recovered tho.
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I would encourage you to reach out to your friends if you feel like your counsellor in school is unable to meet your needs.
I cant share, people might try it and succeed