Dear @anonymous279,
Thank you for including a trigger warning in your message; it’s very considerate of you. This shows your thoughtfulness and kindness. I’m glad you reached out for support on this platform instead of trying to cope alone. Well done! 
If you feel comfortable, could you share what has prevented you from seeing your therapist for such a long time? When was your last therapy session?
Dealing with medication side effects sounds very challenging, and I’m really sorry you’re going through this. It’s important to take your feelings seriously and seek help when needed. Here are a few steps that might help you navigate this difficult period.
Reach Out to a Trusted Adult: Even if you can’t see your therapist, try talking to a parent, guardian, or another trusted adult about how you’re feeling. They can provide support and help you get in touch with the right professionals.
Get mental health support: It might be worth reaching out to another mental health professional to explain your current situation. If you’re not satisfied with their advice, you can ask for a second opinion or a referral to another psychiatrist.
**Explore Other Support Services: If getting in contact with your therapist again isn’t possible, perhaps try another therapist. There are also crisis hotlines, mental health organisations, and online communities that can offer immediate support and guidance.
Here are some community options you can consider:
Singapore Association for Mental Health (SAMH): 1800-283 7019
TOUCHLINE: 1800-377-2252
Care Corner Counselling Centre: 1800-353 5800
CHAT
Brahm Centre
Limitless
Medication Management: It’s important not to stop or adjust your medication without professional guidance, as this can lead to withdrawal symptoms and other complications. Discuss any changes in medication with a healthcare provider.
Self-Care Strategies: Focus on basic self-care. Eating regularly, staying hydrated, getting enough rest, and engaging in gentle activities that you enjoy can make a difference. Mindfulness or relaxation techniques might also help manage some of the stress and confusion. Here are some YouTube videos for your consideration:
Box Breathing: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7uQXDkxEtM
Progressive Muscle Relaxation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w4gJuAyPxUk
Managing Feelings & Emotions: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vs-MyQgfH3A
Emergency Support: If you’re feeling overwhelmed or having serious suicidal thoughts, please seek immediate help. Go to the nearest hospital or call emergency services. You can also reach out to SOS – 1767 the hotline for SOS is toll-free and you may choose to remain anonymous.
You will be speaking to volunteers who are trained to provide emotional support and a listening ear or receive some resources for professional support. You may also consider reaching out to SOS via their CareText function using WhatsApp (9151 1767).
It’s okay to ask for help and to keep looking until you find the right support for yourself. Your safety is the top priority. You don’t have to manage all of your challenges alone. Support is available. I hope the above has been helpful and if you’d like more resources or if there is anything else you’d like to share with us, please do. We’re here to listen to you, your feelings are valid and you matter! 
Take care,
CoolBreeze =)
i decided to try going off of one of the medications because id essentially given up on my psychiatrist but now im feeling even hazier and kind of confused… and some of my suicidal thoughts have been coming back which is very scary to me having attempted several times in the past 
i think maybe it might be like symptoms of withdrawal partially? idk… i have no idea what to do or who to consult about this bc i cant deal with being on the medication or off of it 