I don’t know anymore. I’m sorry if I sound ungrateful but it’s tiring to cater to parents who both had it hard growing up and having to deal with them. It’s not me that I’m upset about. I love my parents dearly.
It’s hard to handle a mother who makes me guess her goodwill and get mad at me when I don’t get it like for example today, she demanded to speak to my pastor because she wants to pull me out of church (she knows I love church so shes threatening to do so because I’m apparently “acting out” by replying to her scoldings to explain my part) Obviously, I get scared because I don’t want that to happen.. but the next thing I know after I tell her I don’t want that to happen, she proceeded to yell and cry at me and said I’m not interpreting her goodwill and how she was for me and not against me. I was so confused because she never communicated her feelings nor her intentions and expected me to keep guessing. Then she starts crying about how I think of her as a disgrace and stuff and I’m here screaming inside because she always makes me feel terrible when she does this. I don’t know what I did wrong and since young I’ve always felt I’m the terrible disgrace. But her putting words into my mouth got me very upset and I tried to tell her I never said those words and she just rolls her eyes and said “never said U did” then why even do that? I don’t get it. She claims she’s immature as well and I just hope it was a joke but I don’t see it the way I use to see it as a child. Someone help me.. please. And don’t think I’m ungrateful I swear I’m not.
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