So, i have been working almost every day, without a rest day. I have this thinking that i wish one day, i will not wake up from my sleep. not sure if its normal thinking? i have no thoughts of hurting myself at all, i just want to be debt free the soonest, thus i feel having a single rest day is a waste of my time. i knew i’m tired, but my mind keep telling me i cant afford to rest. not sure if i needed to seek help for my overthinking?
Hey @user465175,
Thank you for being honest about this. I want to respond carefully and plainly.
Working almost every day for months, carrying debt, and feeling like you “can’t afford to rest” puts you into constant survival mode. In that state, thoughts like “I wish I wouldn’t wake up” can show up not because you want to die, but because your system is exhausted and wants the pressure to stop. That kind of thought is more about fatigue and overload than intent.
It’s important that you’re clear you don’t want to hurt yourself. At the same time, this level of exhaustion and mental strain is a sign that you’ve been pushing past what one person can safely hold on their own.
The belief that rest is a waste of time makes sense when debt feels urgent. But when the body is already worn down, that belief can keep you stuck in a loop where you’re surviving day to day without recovering enough to actually move forward. Overthinking in this context isn’t a personal flaw, it’s what happens when fear is doing all the decision-making.
To your question: yes, it would be reasonable to seek help not because something is “wrong” with you, but because you’ve been under sustained pressure for too long. Support can help you separate what truly needs to be urgent from what is being driven by exhaustion and fear, and help you find ways to protect your health while dealing with debt realities.
For now, the priority is keeping yourself steady enough to continue safely. Even one rest day isn’t a failure or a waste it’s part of making sure you don’t burn out completely.
If you’re open to it, reaching out to someone outside this space a counsellor, a helpline, or a professional service can help you carry this load without having to push yourself further alone. You’ve been doing a lot already.
We can keep this slow. The fact that you’re questioning this shows awareness, not weakness.
I wanted to seek help, be it counselling or psychiatric. But the price might be a burden to me. So I’m kinda stuck at my current state.
Hey @user465175,
You can try calling mindline 1771 and get 24-hour access to the helpline for any questions or speak with a counsellor for free. I am sure that they will be able to assist to establish the right support for you.