is it normal to have deep affectionate feelings for the person i feel close to. i am lesbian but she isnt. Shes aware of how I feel about her. i feel we r in some kind of situationship.
Hi @user0885! It’s absolutely normal to have deep affectionate feelings for someone you feel emotionally close to. Things may feel confusing if the person you care about don’t share the same sexual orientation, especially when boundaries or feelings aren’t entirely clear…
What you are feeling is real and valid. Give yourself space to explore it gently, while staying connected to what you need emotionally, be it clarity, distance or support. 
hey @user0885 , thank you for sharing! i kinda relate to your experience, i had a crush on my straight girl bestie and it was so confusing 
know that you’re not alone in the way you feel. sometimes we just can’t really control how we feel towards people, especially someone who is so close to ourselves
i wonder if you’ve been able to talk to her about this? while she may be aware of how you feel, perhaps the boundaries aren’t so clear in the way you act around each other.
it’s definitely not an easy conversation to have, or it might not even be possible at the moment, depending on your situation. give yourself some time, be kind towards yourself and your feelings, and know that how you feel is valid know that you will always have a safe space here to share about your experience!
It is normal, and with any situationship, it’s not an easy position to be in. What you feel is real and it can be confusing to navigate it when the feelings are for your friend.
You mentioned that your friend knows about your feelings. How did the two of you talk about it?
And while it is normal, do remember to check in with what feels not so normal or uncomfortable for you. It’s not fun to look at the uncomfy stuff, but just doing a check in to see if you can identify what’s contributing to those feelings and how much it’s affecting you might be good