FINALLY got myself a pt job ! was pretty happy till my family and peers to said“you’re gonna experience real life now”. This made me sad and anxious cus what if my job SHUCKS, everyone SHUCKS and the only way out is to start a damn business by doing e comms!?!?!!?!? my siblings always told me "to network or make new friends or do a specific thing so I can become more successful. BUTUTBUT I just don’t wannnaaa D: idw talking to new people irl, I dun wanna be those people who leech onto others for my own benefit. most importantly, idw go JC!!! I got a pretty good score, much better than I thought I ever would (nett 7) and now my siblings telling me “GO (this JC)” but I really don’t want to go JC AT ALL.
What if I’ll never make friends in the future? what if I become a loner, a sad pathetic person who doesn’t succeed in life cus I didn’t invest in sp500 of whaetervt thats called (even tho I CANT I’m underage) what if I tried to make my own business and FAIL, what if I can never look like those douyin girls forever, what if all my efforts to lead a peaceful and good life COLLASPES AND ILL BE SAD FOREVER 
this will be a a very rongggg rant too! when I got my o level results, I was surprised to see that I got an A for English! little did I know, the person who borderline bullied me texted me saying “oh my gosh you did it I’m so happy for you” then added “uk, the English teacher said he didn’t expect you to get so high” which, like in a way you can interpret it as he’s surprised, he’s happy. but that was the same guy who failed me EVERY SINGLE TIME. once I used “environment” as “nature” and bro FAILED ME and called me out in front of the class. also, he called me complacent, stubborn and lazy (when I was genuinely putting in my best effort cus I was never good at English) so idk how to feel
talking about my job, I’m pretty happy! I think it gives me a good worklife balance uk? 4-5 days a week, 5-6 hours per shift, and its like a nice walk from my house! and I can adjust my schdule during school terms! but now I’m just wondering whether I signed myself up for hell
I feel like I have a chronic disease, the “i can never catch a break” disease. to be fair, I guess its normal
Hey @Mmmmeeow, from what you’ve shared, I can tell you’re very afraid of what the future might hold, and that things might go wrong for you.
You’ve talked about your worries for many things, such as finding new friends or starting your own business, and it’s stressing you out. Well it’s not easy to be juggling so many goals at once, so please don’t be so harsh on yourself. Perhaps you can take it one step at a time, and focus on a sole goal (such as making new friends) before moving on to the next!
It’s great that you’ve found a pt job that you like and did well for your O-Levels exams! (that even your English teacher was pleasantly surprised!) Sometimes we tend to chase too much after the things others have but we don’t, so remember to celebrate these wins too!
You’re right in saying that the future is uncertain, but we can start changing it by taking small little steps in the present. Focus on a handful of goals first, give yourself time to work yourself up and take short breaks when you need it. I’m rooting for you! 
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First of all , congrats on the PT job. That’s genuinely a win, and it makes sense you felt happy about it. Don’t let other people rewrite that feeling for you.
Also… your fears sound loud, but they’re very human. You’re not broken for not wanting to network, not wanting JC, not wanting to hustle or leech or become some hyper-optimized success machine. Wanting a peaceful, decent life is not a failure mindset but a valid one. And success doesn’t only come from JC, SP500, e-com, or talking to 500 people you don’t even like.
About the English thing… yeah, that hurts. It’s confusing and unfair to be doubted, embarrassed, and then suddenly praised. But the A is real !! You earned it despite someone else’s low expectations, not because of them. That says more about your resilience than their opinion ever could.
And listen, for the “what if I’m sad forever” spiral? That’s anxiety talking, not prophecy. You don’t have to solve your entire future right now. You’re allowed to just… live this phase. Work your job. Rest. Figure things out slowly. Most people do.
You’re not behind. You’re not doomed. You’re not weak for feeling tired of pressure.
You’re actually doing okay even if it doesn’t feel like it yet. 