First time posting here. Please let me know if I made a mistake on this post. To sum it up, I was yelled at a lot since I was a child and I have grown a fear of loud things and being yelled at. Recently, I had a fight and I was yelled at right in my face. The incident happened 2 days ago and I still feel scared and paranoid while also having the urge to cry. Compared to my childhood, this was the worst case. I would like to know if it’s a trauma or not because of the symptoms I showed.
Dear @Sparrowarrow
Thank you for reaching out and you have not made any mistakes in this post. In fact I think you wrote clearly and articulated your thoughts well.
I sense how affected you are by the recent fight which involved you being yelled at. That in itself sounds unpleasant and painful. I think just about everyone would dislike being yelled at, too.
When I hear about your childhood experiences where you were yelled at a lot, it is even more understandable that you have developed a fear around yelling since young. It must have been very frightening, unsafe and you must have felt alone and unsupported.
Such adverse experiences can impact us long term. It is likely certain unhelpful beliefs develop, too that remain with us. If these beliefs and experiences are not adequately and safely reprocessed, we are at risk when something similar happens in the present.
To me, what you are going through sounds traumatic but it’s good you get a diagnosis so that you can receive suitable treatment and care. If you can, it would be good to speak to a counsellor to unpack both the recent fight and what has happened in your childhood.
Other steps you can consider are to practise grounding when you feel overwhelmed. Calming techniques such as deep breathing could also help you come back the present moment and remind yourself you are safe now, the danger has passed. Keep reaching out for support whenever needed, you are not alone and help is available. 