its been week 3? of uni and I managed to make some rlly nice friends and I am putting myself out there socialising/joining cca/making friends from various courses.
At the same time theres 2 doubts at the back of my head. My whole poly life has been super mundane and I could never connect with anyone as close as my cca club, but certain issues happened and it felt the club had such a nasty split. Which also meant I barely stayed in contact with very few poly friends, it felt like I don’t really have any past friends I could hang out/chat because of our rlly chaotic schedule and everything clashes.
My other thought would be personal and family drama struggles, I have gone through lots of family arguments, mental health struggles from my siblings. It has been better now thankfully, but thinking about the what ifs and Im really afraid I wont be able to cope with it especially with the building and stressful workload I am facing week by week.
I realised how grateful it is to only worry about academic stress 100% where I felt its easier to cope rather than unfair circumstances I have faced in life. Idk im on my period while im typing this so thats why my emotions have been a roller-coaster today AHHAHA