I don’t know since when i always think all the people don’t like me and all the things and decision I make just lead me to a deeper and deeper failure and I felt so depressed and negative. Recently I think about suicide a lot.
But sometimes I feel better I was still laugh with other friends, just a very heavy mood swing I guess? But still I am not happy most of the time. I feel very lost and overwhelmed by negative thoughts. I started to feel like I don’t want to get involve in any conversation with other people I just want to lock into myself and I’m being more and more quiet. I started to think too much and I don’t know how to explain a feeling I just want to end my life once and for all. As a 29 years old adult, I know this is an very irresponsible thoughts, but I really can’t help it, I can’t stop overthinking too much, or msybe I just care too much?
Never too late to get help. I got help late too. Therapist will help u process ur thoughts. For feeling like a failure, what i did was accumulating small wins. Pls dont seclude urself, i did that n made it worse
I think it’s normal to have intrusive thoughts now and then. How long has it been since you felt this way?
You want a “restart” but practically what does that look like? Is it changing jobs or changing the environment that you’re in? Maybe (if financial means allow), taking a break and getting some solo travel in could help.
First of all it takes a load of courage to come forward with what you are experiencing so thank you for that. I believe you are seeking answers on how to break free from the loop you are currently in. I believe it is a reset that charts a new life direction as the current is not working as planned.
Please know that repetitive negative thinking is common for many of us especially when faced with challenges that never seem to end. I encourage you to keep going - the situation can improve by taking small steps such as:
Pause and Observe: Take a moment to focus on your surroundings using your senses, which can help ground you in the present moment (https://www.mcleanhospital.org/essential/negative-thinking).
Label Your Thoughts: Recognize your thoughts as just that—thoughts. For example, say, “I am having the thought that…” to create distance from them
(https://www.mcleanhospital.org/essential/negative-thinking).
Distract Yourself: Engage in activities like exercise, reading, or calling a friend to break the cycle of rumination. Exercise also breaks the rumination cycle.
Challenge Negative Thoughts: Ask yourself if these thoughts are true and try to reframe them positively
(How to break the negative thinking loop | MensLine Australia).
Practice Mindfulness: Techniques like meditation can help manage intrusive thoughts by focusing on your breath and the present moment [
(How to Stop Ruminating)(https://positivepsychology.com/thought-stopping-techniques/).
Seek Professional Help: Therapy can provide tools to manage negative thinking patterns effectively. Call the 24- hour SOS hotline at 1767 if you feel distress and need support immediately.
Your life is precious and I am certain you mean a lot to your family and friends so please don’t feel alone. Reach out to them for support.
I myself have gone through many many storms in my life and have learnt life’s lessons that problems are temporary and hard times will pass eventually. Keep going and keep taking tiny steps forward. 
I tried, but it seems nor helping at all. Ok, after a talk with the therapist feels better, but only for a small while, and it came back after 1 or 2 days
Sorry if I sound too negative, but restart as in restart my life. These stupid thoughts been in my head for the past 2 years, but everytime I think about my parents I just can’t do it, but at the same time I am so burnt out for the negativity thats in my head. I am trying my best to not to think like that but it just don’t help
@holeinmyheart I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way – it takes courage to share what’s going on, and it’s clear that you’ve been carrying a lot on your own. Reaching out, like you’re doing here, is a good first step.
Talking to a professional can be a helpful way to unpack these feelings, but it’s also true that it takes time. It’s not a one-time solution, and the process may feel slow at first – but with patience and consistency, it can lead to real changes. 
You’re valued, even if it doesn’t always feel that way, and there are people who care about you and want to support you through this.