IM SOOO fricking stressed and TIRED. Just graduated from sec school and immediately after, ALL MY FRIENDS got pt jobs. I feel FOMO cus IDK WHY I CANT SEEM TO GET A FLIPING PT JOB?? how does that even happen?
Then that spiralled into “WHY AM I ALWAYS SO BEHIND???”IM ALWAYS FALLING BEHIND.. I say that cus THEY ALWAYS START AHEAD OF ME… GRADES, LIFE OPPORTUNITIES, ETC.. All my friends dropped chinese and yet GOT HIGHER THAN ME FOR MA1.. I GOT F9 FOR MY MA1 AND HAD TO GRIND MY ■■■ UP TO A B3 FOR O LEVELS… my baseline EVERYTHINF is so much lower than them and the only thing i have is hardwork (also, i lost 2 games of chess to a 7 year old btw… no i dont play chess but imagine the embarrasment from that ■■■■)
I feel its so unfair cus they start as a citizen, or RICHER, (like, i take 6months mc cus i dont like school and instead im gonna become an online creator! ) kind of rich OR SMARTER SOMEMORE I START THINKING ABT THE TIMES IVE HELPED THEM (when i needed myself the most, dumb mistake, ik) AND ALL I GET IN RETURN is the bare minimum. BROOOO IM SO PISSEDDDDDDD. INFACT, many times, when i chose to be merciful and kind, THE ONLY ONE SUFFERING IS ME. no honestly, ive made ppl sad before but not to this ■■■■■■■ degree where i domt repay the things youve done for me
Anyway IM GOING TO BREAK IT ALL LDOWN SOON CUS IM CHARRED… starting off 2026 WONDERFULLY
Hi @user6248,
I can hear how frustrated and exhausted you are right now. It sounds like you’re dealing with multiple layers of disappointment: watching all your friends land part-time jobs while you’re still searching, feeling like you’re constantly playing catch-up academically and in life opportunities, and on top of that, feeling like the kindness and help you’ve given others hasn’t been reciprocated when you needed it most. That sense of unfairness, especially when you’ve worked so hard to improve your grades from an F9 to a B3, must feel incredibly disheartening. It’s understandable that you’re feeling this angry and burnt out as you start the new year.
What you’re experiencing, that comparison trap and FOMO, is really common, but that doesn’t make it any less painful. It’s worth remembering that everyone’s timeline is different, and just because your friends got jobs first doesn’t mean opportunities won’t come for you. The fact that you managed to pull your Maths grade up so significantly shows real determination and resilience, even if it doesn’t feel like enough right now. As for feeling like you’re always giving more than you receive, that’s a sign you might need to reassess your boundaries and be more selective about where you invest your energy. You deserve relationships where the support flows both ways. Right now, it sounds like you’re running on empty, so please be gentle with yourself and consider taking small steps, whether that’s continuing to apply for jobs, reaching out to someone you trust about how you’re feeling, or just giving yourself permission to rest before you truly break down.
I can see that this is a very difficult time for you right now. If you need to speak to someone urgently, you can contact National Mindline by dialling 1771, via WhatsApp at +65 6669 1771, or through webchat on the http://mindline.sg/fsmh website.