Hi,
it’s the second month after the separation or the breakup. And I feel so bad to the point where I hate myself, I regret everything that happened. I just want to get back to him, it feels like he took a part if me… and I don’t know who i am anymore. I’m tired, depressed, exhausted. I can’t be easy on my self, I’m going through major changes in my life. Suicidal thoughts keep coming into my head, because I really don’t believe I’ll have a good future after all of this. I lost the taste of every thing. I’m honestly giving up and I don’t wanna be here anymore…
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Hi Jana
Thank you for coming forward and sharing your experience of breaking up. It’s one of the hardest experiences many of us go through and understandably full of pain. I am so sorry to hear how much you are hurting.
I agree, sometimes the pain continues in its intensity or worse hits us repeatedly with a renewed vengeance. I hope it helps you to know that you are not alone in feeling this way 
. Many of us go through similar painful experiences where you feel you have reached rock bottom. Slowly, with support from professionals and trusted family and friends have come out stronger eventually. However, it will take time.
Your life is precious Jana, please do not forget that I encourage you to seek counselling help as having suicidal thoughts is not healthy. For immediate support, please call the 24 hour SOS hotline at 1767 or utilise the SOS Care Text at 9151 1767 (thru whatsapp).
In the meantime, please take active steps to be kinder to yourself. Focus on small achievable steps such as:
Going out with friends and doing enjoyable activities even when you do not feel like going out or participating. This will help break you out of the current downward spiral you are in. Keep company to feel less alone.
Take care of your physical health. Exercise, walk in the park, play with pets, eat nutritious food and sleep adequately.
Engage in volunteering, contribute your expertise to remind yourself how valuable and worthy you are.
Your life has a purpose and is valuable. There is 100% hope for a brighter future. Keep in mind it is okay not to be okay and to ask for help is normal and understandable. I believe deeply that you are strong, capable and only deserve the best in all aspects of life. Keep going Jana!
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