Having disagreements with people is hard, but I feel like it’s a lot worse with family. Probably because I’ve known them for so long, am likely to be stuck with them for a long time too and I’m in close proximity with them and all their problems a lot.
I get that they are growing like me, I get that they need time to change just like I do, but still. It’s hard. It hurts. Sometimes when I interact with them I feel this deep disgust and hatred that scares me. I think maybe if we stayed further from each other we’d get along better. It’d be the easy way out, make it so much easier to ignore the things I hate about them.
There’s always someone shouting or arguing about something in my house. My head throbs when it happens. I mean, I sort of know what I have to do and I get that it’s a process that will take time, I just wanted to tell someone. I know it’ll get better eventually, but right now, it sucks and I’m sad.