my whole life as a single child and the oldest grandchild in a broken family it has been the most difficult time growing up, from dads passing to even tough situations like getting bullied in school, dad and mom getting cancer, mom and dad divorce when i was primary 6 but mainly i went through all these alone with no support from anyone. Well i tried relationships and it has all ended in them leaving cause of lost of feelings and it sucks it really does i wish i could have someone that would help me or go through all these with me during all these difficult times.
I tried taking my life before but i woke up in a hospital bed and went through lots of therapy and counselling set goals in my life that i want to reach and achieve but it’s been getting more and more tough as a 25 year old kid who has to deal with so many responsibilities many sleepless and crying nights i really am trying my best i really want things to work out in my favour without having to beg or want it. i don’t know why am i still so kind and nice to the people around me despite everything i have been through and obviously there are people out there who has been through worst than what i have i am just tired finding a job taking care of grandparents and family and even healing from a break up 
as a 26 year old, i feel these too. whatever you’re feeling is so valid. one thing i’ve learnt so far is that good & kind things are so possible of happening to you. i know it can feel as if things are so easy to feel doomed even when it may not. there’s so much kindness and wisdom in what has pass us by. it is okay to grieve and to sit with that feeling even if it takes for awhile. you’re so brave and courageous for putting a foot over the other & i am so proud of you. you are not a failure or doomed for still braving through things that needs extra time to grow through. you’re doing what you can with how much you can & what you can. back in 2011-2012, it was sincerely rough and challenging for me due to bullying and stuff too, the suicidal thoughts i had was very loud at the time even 2016 too. i will never know things could actually become & feel better and that i will meet people who will show support the way you’re meant to feel supported. i wouldn’t have believed it back then. i know things can take extra extra time to eventually wither away but the fact you’re still moving forward, you are a living proof that is a courageous force and that you can actually do hard things & you can be brave facing them. we got ya! 
Hi User1436,
I can hear how overwhelming and exhausting everything has been for you, and I want to first acknowledge how much you’ve been carrying. It sounds like life has been throwing one thing after another at you, from your family’s challenges to relationship struggles, and it’s no wonder you’re feeling so tired and alone in all of this.
You’ve been through so much, and I can understand why it feels like there’s no end in sight. You’ve been trying your best, and even though it doesn’t feel like things are getting better, that doesn’t mean they never will. Sometimes, when you’ve been holding so much for so long, it’s hard to imagine that things could change or that you can get the relief you need.
It also sounds like you’ve been carrying everything alone, and that’s something no one should have to do. You deserve a break, and it’s okay to ask for help. Feeling like you need relief doesn’t mean you’re failing, and you don’t have to keep pushing forward without any support. There are people who care and who can help you get through this—it’s okay to lean on others and let someone else carry the weight for a while.
I know that there’s a part of you that just wants things to end because it feels like the only way out, but I want to remind you that what you’re really seeking is relief, instead of an end. There are ways to find that relief and breaks. Sometimes, just finding a little space to breathe or take a break can make a huge difference.
If you feel ready, we’d love to help you explore ways to share some of the burdens you’ve been carrying—You don’t have to do this alone, and things can change, even if it feels impossible right now.
Here are other community options you can consider:
- Singapore Association for Mental Health (SAMH) - 1800-283 7019
- IMH CHAT: (https://www.imh.com.sg/CHAT/GetHelp/webCHAT/Pages/default.aspx)
- SOS - 1767
- Care Corner Counselling Centre - 1800-353 5800