I feel anxious most of times I can’t find any remedy to alleviate the pain, the past years have gone, I have no control over my life it’s going nowhere. Maybe if I believe the pain is a comfort place for myself it is not. I’m seeking help hopefully I can get a better view of my problematic life
Hey @user4852. I can hear how heavy things feel for you right now. Feeling like life is out of control and anxious most of the time can be exhausting. Feeling like pain is familiar can happen as sometimes our mind holds onto it because it’s the only thing it recognizes.
You’ve already taken an important step by reaching out. That shows courage and self-awareness.
If you’re open to it, maybe you could try:
- Noticing one thing each day you can control, no matter how small.
- Breathing or grounding exercises when anxiety spikes, even for just a few minutes like the 5-4-3-2-1 grounding where you name 5 things you see, 4 things you feel, 3 things you hear, 2 things you smell, 1 thing you taste, or just multiple deep breathing.
- Journaling your feelings to release some of the mental weight.
They don’t solve everything, but they make the day a bit more manageable.
Seeking professional help like therapy or counselling is another really strong step. You don’t have to do this alone, and having someone to talk to can help lighten the load, especially since they are trained to guide you through to make sense of what’s happening, and figuring out what coping mechanisms would work for you.
You don’t have to fix everything at once. Just one small step at a time can start to give you back a sense of control and hope 
Hey @user4852,
Thank you for opening up about your situation and for trusting us with this vulnerability. Your action is well admired and I acknowledge you for doing so.
From what I’m hearing you are in much pain and have been struggling with anxiety for a while. You’re feelings are valid and you are not alone~
I see that you are losing options on what to do to overcome this feeling of anxiety, and are contemplating of adopting the viewpoint that if pain is comfort, it wouldn’t be so bad
If you’re up for some suggestions I have some, and if you feel comfortable you may try them out too. But if these suggestions do not work for you that’s okay as well💙:
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Journalling📔Personally after I journal, I feel more grounded and connected with myself, it is also my way of expressing all my emotions without limits. I find it therapeutic at times
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Being aware of our five senses🌬️ Doing so reminds us to slow down, to breathe and to live in the present moment, shifting our viewpoint from the future/ the past to the now
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Being around nature🍃 Doing so allows myself to calm down as I observe my surroundings. Simply sitting on a park bench can do wonders for our nervous system rather than staying in our house/ rooms. Watch the trees move with the wind, watch the leaves flutter, enjoy the sounds and scents around you ~
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Talking it out with a trusted individual
Expressing oneself verbally is very relaxing in my opinion, doing so can also strengthen bonds with the other individual from all the vulnerable and honest conversations
These are some suggestions that could help, feel free to try them out 
Many hugs to you, you are not alone in this and it gets better yeah? Reach out if you have more concerns. Remember that you are deeply loved and cherished yeah~🤗
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Hi @user4852 I can sense you’re feeling helpless and lost in trying to deal with anxiety. From what you’ve shared it seems that anxiety has been a big hurdle for you and it has robbed your control over your life.
Feeling that pain is a comfort space may bring relief in the short-term, yet the pain will still linger. There are other methods that you can try out to manage your anxiety, as mentioned by @ScribblingSunflower and @WishfulWaves , you can give them a shot!
I think that it is wonderful that you’ve tried to find remedies to alleviate the pain, and have took charge of your mental health by seeking professional advice. Going on this journey alongside someone else can be helpful in managing the anxiety better and learning new things you never realised about yourself too.
Things will look daunting now, so take things one small step at a time. You’re not in this alone, okay? Please reach out whenever you feel distressed, there will always be people willing to listen. 
Dear @user4852
Thank you for writing in. I can sense the pain you are in. I detect sadness and remorse too of lost opportunities and an uncertain path ahead. What you have described sounds like an endless cycle of anxiety. You reaching out here suggests to me you have had enough and want to break free of this. That is a great first step!
@WishfulWaves , @ScribblingSunflower and @crispycreme have made many good suggestions. Do consider their tips and suggestions.
I also encourage you to speak to a professional counsellor who will sit with you and listen to you without judgment. You really do not have to face this alone. Many avenues of help are available such as the national mindline reachable at 1771.
Do also continue to reach out here whenever needed too. Keep going by taking small tiny steps forward to make every day a better day than yesterday. Stick to improving controllable aspects of your life and you will see progress over time. 
Thank you this very helpful
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Thank you for your careness I will
Thank you this means the world I feel much better
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