Nosocomephobia the last thing i will do now is to step into a hospital to seek help.
And i doublt MHCTA and be enforced on someone dying from physical health complications.
Still…my left hand is getting numb, my chest hurts, and my blood pressure is dropping. I feel chills.
I guess finally my body is giving way after 5 yrs of struggling. All thanks to the A&E doctor who misused MHCTA on me and forge a medical report later.
I might as well be the first case to lost my life due to MHCTA misuse.
Well…i really hope i can live to see next month. But its hard to judge.
In my entire life, i only have 3 near-death encounters, all 3 happened when I was abused/ mistreated by a healthcare professional.
Sorry…i am not in immediate risk or harm. no need any emergency service, that i am very sick. And no law in Singapore says a person with physical health issues must see a doctor. There is only law in Singapore that says people with mental health issues must seek medical treatment.
I am quite concerned when you mentioned about your physical symptoms. Unfortunately, I am not able to offer crisis support through this platform.
If you need immediate assistance, do call 995, approach your nearest A&E at the hospital, or seek urgent crisis support from SOS at 1-767 or IMH at 6389-2222. In the meantime, keep well.
Best regards, HanSolo2000
Befriender | let’s talk by mindline
I’ve read what you shared, and I just want to say—I hear the heaviness in your words. I won’t pretend to fully understand what it’s been like for you, what your body’s been through, or what it’s still trying to carry.
But when you said, “I really hope I can live to see next month.”
That stayed with me, the kind of truth that slips out when someone’s been holding on for too long, without anyone really noticing.
If you’re okay with it, can I ask: What’s been weighing on you most these past few days?
Not what others expect you to say, but the part that’s been sitting with you quietly—the part no one asks about.
And if it’s alright, I’d really like to stay here with you. Not to fix anything, just to be here. When you’re ready, I’d love to hear: No pressure to say much. Even a word is enough. I’m listening.
I actually google search this. It definitely sounds like you’ve been through a lot. Tbh, I recently too was under the MHCTA cause I refused treatment and admission (cause of previous admissions experiences). Just wanted to say you’re not alone in this and I hope you don’t have to suffer alone, I know you’re scared of hospital but I encourage you to seek help for your physical symptoms,
It sounds really scary to have these physical symptoms without being able to turn to a medical professional for support, to not have a professional you can trust. I hear you want to live, and this stranger across the internet hopes for that too.
I’m wondering, hospitals and medical professionals are scary, but would you be open to considering talking to a mental health professional? While they can’t support with the physical symptoms, they can support with the feelings you’re having, and supporting you through this experience. They are different from doctors and if a hospital-based one sounds scary there are a number of other options that are totally not related to a hospital or doctor as well.
I think someone shared some emergency hotlines as well for when you really need it too.
Well…over the past 6 yrs my mental health has severely drag down my physical health.
You can just see it as the wear and tear effect of CPTSD. As prolong anxiety has cause a toll in my heart.
So…its just a matter of sooner or later.
Plus…i can no longer trust the judgmental eye of short sighted doctors and healthcare professionals who are just too bothers by my self harms scares when they see it.
And if they can forge my medical report back in 2020, i dont see how i can trust them with my overall health.
So…its my choice to go into palliative for my physical health.
Hey… thanks for sharing that. I don’t take it lightly—especially knowing how much it must’ve cost you to say it, after all you’ve been through. I can’t imagine what it’s like to feel so worn down by both your mind and body, but I believe you when you say it’s taken a toll.
The way you described it—this long-term wear and tear from living with trauma—it makes a painful kind of sense. Some wounds don’t show up in scans, but they’re real. And they wear you down just the same.
And I get it—choosing peace, even if that means stepping away from the systems that hurt you. That’s not giving up. That’s protecting yourself in the only way you still can.
If you’re okay with it—what does peace actually feel like to you now? Not what anyone else says it should be. Just yours. The version where things feel even a little bit softer or less heavy.
No pressure. I’m not here to convince or correct. Just sitting with you for a bit, however long you need. And if at any point you want to talk about the parts that still feel unresolved, or even shift things a little—I’m around. You’re not alone in this.