I despise myself. I hate myself. I lost my friends because I cannot control my emotions and cannot use logic to sort things out. I got friendzoned by my crush and eventually lost her as my friend because my feelings for her eventually made her not accepting me to be her friend. I lost my opportunities because I have no direction and eventually lose out to others. I disappointed my educators and guides and I am a failure. My life is falling apart because of myself. I wish I can lock myself out from the rest of the society, and be left alone to cry eternally.
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That sounds like a lot that you’re going through, @AdoringMisanthrope. It’s understandable to feel overwhelmed when things don’t seem to be going right.
Would it be helpful to take a step back and think about what truly matters to you? On relationships, I understand how it can feel devastating when you get rejected. Sometimes, it’s not about you as a person but just about the timing. Maybe she’s not ready or maybe she already has someone else in mind.
On opportunities, I assume you’re talking about work/school? It’s okay to take your time to figure out what direction you want to go. Sometimes, accepting where we are can open up new possibilities. If you can share more, perhaps some of us can share similar experiences.
Remember, it’s okay to ask for help. I’m glad you’re here with us!
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I don’t know what matters to me. It is truly devastating when I knew that I got rejected. Knowing that she is someone that I really admire and befriended for some time only to realise that my admiration for her steered her away from me… About opportunities, I already felt that I have ruined my future in school and I can never achieve something that can make me feel achieved. I really want to seek professional help to steer me back to sanity at this point. I really wish that I can reconnect with my crush too, since we have not communicated as our relationship has soured because of me. What should I do?
Dear @AdoringMisanthrope,
I’m really sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It sounds like you’ve been going through a really tough time, and it’s completely understandable to feel overwhelmed by everything that’s happened.
Losing friends and feeling like you’ve disappointed others can weigh heavily on anyone. It’s important to remember that everyone struggles with emotions and setbacks at some point in their lives.
It’s okay to feel hurt, but please remember to be kind to yourself as you process these feelings. You are not defined by your mistakes or the challenges you’re facing right now. If you’re comfortable, it might help to talk through your feelings or even find new interests or activities that could lead you to meet new people. You deserve support and understanding, and it’s okay to reach out for help when you need it.
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