i dont wanna have desires, urges and feelings. or even eat, talk and sleep. i dont wanna do what humans do. i feel an overwhelming sense of dread for not who i am but what i am. i would rather live as an inanimated object, but here i am stuck in this body.
I dont look forward to anything in life. I really hate how this life is just work and work and work every single day but it’s not like its gonna change anyway. i have to force myself out of bed and just live in a constant state of derealization. Im ready to go anytime but it seems selfish in a way and also due to beliefs. its like i was never meant to be here but still ended up here. Life is just ripping me into shreds.
There is always a reason on why you are here. You might not see it now, but you will. You mentioned that you work and work every single day. You might want to take a few days leave to rest or go out with your friends or family.
Thank you for courageously seeking answers during this difficult and challenging period that you are going through.
Please know that you are not alone: I believe many of us identify with you and have undergone similar crises at some point especially when feeling overwhelmed.
Your words convey a sense of despair, disconnection, and hopelessness. It’s understandable and valid. Feeling trapped in your body and life is terrifying.
May I encourage you to reach out to a mental health professional soon. It would be a safe spce for you to explore meaning, your life purpose and identity. The mental health professional would also be work with you on loss of motivation, skills to manage stress.
It would be beneficial to bring some balance into your life as currently it sounds like its centred around work. Reach for trusted friends and family members, engage in hobbies you enjoy. Share your experiences and allow them to help and provide care in any way they can.
The SOS hotline is available 24 hours at 1767 for immediate help.
For other Immediate coping mechanisms pls consider:
Grounding techniques: Focus on your five senses. What you see, hear, feel, touch, smell and taste. It can help you reclaim awareness and stay in the present moment.
Social connection: Reach out to a trusted friend or family member.
Please know that you are not alone in this struggle. I also believe there are many people around you who are deeply grateful to have you in their lives. Don’t let the negative thoughts minimise how valuable you are.
I encourage you can take small steps every day to feel better and commence your healing journey. Your life is deeply precious and valued.
I hear you, sometimes it feels like it’s better not to exist, especially when there’s nothing to do in life and everything just seems like just work.
Not that I may understand your situation fully but I’ve felt like that before. It’s an understandable mindset especially with Singapore’s education and work focused culture. However, it’s important to have other hobbies, something you can do in your free time. Set little goals in your hobbies (for eg. read finish a book within a year, cycle for 2km in the month, etc), you can even break down the goals further if you want.
I know it’s easier said than done but when life starts to feel meaningless it’s important for us to find our own meanings for life. Humans are always changing, so if your goals change that’s fine, just keep finding something you enjoy to look forward to
Hello @idkanymore! Thank you for sharing how you’re feeling !
Right now, it seems like there is a lot of weight involved in just living, which can make everything seem so lonely and empty. Although it may seem like no one else could relate to your feelings, you are not alone. Life might seem like an infinite cycle at times, and it can be very difficult when purpose seems unattainable.
You should not have to live a life of monotony and emptiness; you should have moments of purpose and connection. Despite their intensity, these emotions don’t have to continue forever. There may be brief moments of relief if you take even the simplest measures to discuss these ideas with a friend, counsellor, or other trustworthy individual. The fact that you have persevered through this hardship demonstrates a resilience that you may not even be aware of at this time. Support is there for you, so you don’t have to carry this burden alone. Even if it seems so far at the moment, there is hope
! Thank you for sharing how you’re feeling ! 
