I genuinely don’t have anything better to do in my life, there’s nothing I really look forward too, my interests (even though little) are dying on me too
I don’t want to go to school anymore, I don’t want to go for exams, and I want to sit in house to sleep and cry
I feel at fault, I’m not doing better for my friends, I’m snapping at teachers/friends, Im losing attention during my classes, I’m forgetting everything, I don’t have interest to study or do homework
I just feel like rotting in my room and to not move, already feels like that
It feels like my fault at times, and I don’t know what to do anymore.
And it hurts physically and mentally
Hey @positivehoneydew9890,
If things were still working for you or still felt meaningful, there wouldn’t really be a need to look for something “better.” It could be that what used to interest you no longer feels engaging or challenging in the same way.
Then when you said, “I don’t want to go to school anymore… I want to sit in house to sleep and cry…” that sounds different. It points more towards struggling and holding in a lot, rather than just losing interest.
There seems to be a mix of irritability, disappointment in yourself, and low motivation. When these come together:
- thoughts → “it’s my fault”, “nothing to look forward to”
- feelings → low, tired, frustrated
- behaviour → withdrawing, snapping, difficulty focusing
It can start to feel like there’s no meaning in what you’re doing, even if your situation hasn’t changed much. This pattern is often linked to low mood. It is not about you not trying.
When you say it “hurts physically and mentally,” does your body feel more heavy and drained, or more tense and restless?
For now, instead of trying to fix everything, you can focus on something small:
what is one thing today that feels manageable, even if it is very simple?
If this becomes harder to cope with, it may help to speak to someone directly. In Singapore:
- National Mindline: 1771
- SOS: 1-767
You don’t need to have everything figured out before reaching out. It makes sense that you feel stuck right now. You can take this one step at a time.