i have friends who supports me whenever i needed and i feel like I’m failing them, they’ve been working so hard to help heal me but I’m doing nothing to heal myself, i feel like I’m just wasting their effort so i just feel like i don’t deserve their help, for some reason I’m scared to heal myself but idk why, i really want to step out of the darkness and let go of the pain but for some reason i just can’t, my friends are trying so hard to help me but I’m failing them everytime so i hate it whenever they’re trying to come out with words to help me because it won’t make a difference either way, the more their efforts the more i can’t handle it, i feel like i just don’t deserve help from others if I’m just wasting their effort, I’m just draining their energy by listening to me talk and helping me, idk what to do anymore
Dear @xnxhanabz
Thank you for writing in and sharing your struggles. What you’re experiencing is incredibly difficult, and it sounds like you’re carrying so much weight right now. It’s clear that your friends care deeply about you and want to help, and the fact that you’re still feeling this pain doesn’t mean you’re failing them. Sometimes, healing is not linear, and it’s not about doing everything perfectly or quickly. You’re doing your best in a really hard situation, and that’s enough. It’s okay to feel scared or unsure about the healing process — that fear doesn’t mean you’re not worthy of support or that you don’t deserve help. You’re not draining anyone by sharing what you’re going through. People who care about you want to be there for you, even when it feels like you’re not making progress. It’s okay to accept their support, and it doesn’t mean you have to have everything figured out right now. Healing takes time, and it’s okay to take small steps, even if they feel like tiny ones. Your feelings are valid, and you don’t have to carry this all on your own. Please be kind to yourself during this time. 
hey @xnxhanabz, you deserve help and support no matter how much you are struggling, or how difficult your situation is! the healing process is not easy at all, and its completely okay to feel scared and unsure about it. you are not draining anyone or wasting their efforts, because these precious friends of yours are here to support you on their own accord! it seems like they genuinely care about you and want to be there for you. I can tell that you are carrying alot of weight as well, but you dont have to go handle all of it on your own. i hope you will be kind to yourself and know that its okay to accept their support 
I have frens who stopped contact after they see my go deeper into depression. U r lucky but u also dont want to pish ppl’s patience. Get professional help. It gets better
Hello @xnxhanabz ! Thanks for sharing your feelings and experience! This is definitely not an easy task, especially to share how you’re feeling to others. On the other hand, you’re not wasting their time; it takes time to heal 
! The process might seem slow, but you will eventually get there! Anytime you need to talk to someone, feel free to drop by let’s talk 