maybe at the end of the day, I’m just undeserving of anything. Underserving of help, friends, family, and whatever one can possibly think of. That’s why maybe people have never taken me seriously. Whether im in pain, distress or anything, EVERYONE doesn’t take me seriously. why? just because i’ve been pushing the hardest for myself to be normal, to do what is needed of me as a friend, as a student, as a daughter or whatever. so by being able to hang on for so long, it means im fine right, im not in pain or anything, im ok. some of you may agree and some may not but thats the reality. if you’re still pushing through, you’re fine. thats how people normally see it and i dont blame them ig, i blame myself for holding on, for trying so hard to be normal and for giving myself hope that things will get better. it won’t. there have been quite a few cases of suicide in my sch and a few days ago, there’s one successful attempted case. while everyone around me was saying how they felt bad or how they felt ashamed that such a young life is gone. im just numb. it feels like everyone only cares or takes you seriously when you’re gone but who really does something when one gave so much signs that they needed help and for you to take them seriously. just take them seriously fr. while i may not know what that student went through but i feel like i understand where he is coming from that leads to his attempt. i feel him and im in a way more envy that his pain has ended. maybe not in a way that many people is ok with but at least this time, people finally believe you that you’re not fine. for me, i’ve tried my best, i’ve hanged on for so long, i’ve tried to get help and yet all of which leads to nobody taking me seriously maybe because im undeserving or maybe because im still pushing through thats why im considered still fine. i just really wanted to rant because how “fake” people are idk just my personal opinion but yea im tired and i’ve prepared what is needed and is ready for everyone to finally take me seriously. i’ve been a disappointment, i’ve been disappointed . maybe thats how fair life is. I just wanna say that being strong also has its limits and even the strongest soldier will one day collapse.
Hi @User1321,
First of all, thank you for sharing your feelings so honestly—it takes courage to open up about something so deeply painful, especially when it feels like the world around you hasn’t acknowledged your struggles. I hear you, and I want to assure you that your feelings are valid. You’ve been trying so hard for so long, and it’s clear that the weight you’re carrying is immense.
It’s incredibly unfair when others fail to see the signs or acknowledge your efforts. It’s exhausting when you feel like you’re screaming silently, hoping someone will notice. Being strong all the time is not easy, and it sounds like you’ve been carrying a tremendous burden on your own. I want you to know: it’s okay to feel tired, and it’s okay to want to rest from the constant fight.
You mentioned feeling like people only care when someone is gone, and that can feel isolating and frustrating. But right here, right now, I see you. I hear your pain, your anger, and your exhaustion. You deserve support not because you’re struggling or because you’ve “reached a limit,” but simply because you’re human—and people need care, no matter how strong or capable they seem on the outside.
If you feel ready, I encourage you to reach out to someone—a trusted friend, teacher, or counselor. Let them know how you’re feeling. It’s not about proving your pain or convincing others to take you seriously. It’s about creating a space for yourself where you can acknowledge and support your feelings.
Your strength in holding on and pushing through does not mean you’re fine—it means you’re fighting. Even the strongest people need someone to lean on. You don’t have to do this alone.
If it feels overwhelming, take a moment to list one small thing that has brought you even the tiniest bit of comfort recently—it could be a song, a memory, or even just getting through the day.
Lastly, you’re not alone in this. There are people who care and want to listen. Your story matters, and you matter. Please take care.
Still no better?. Whats not working out for ur counselling n have u tried therapist instead?