It’s been a while since I posted here, but I’m slowly feel like I’m dying because my mom is slowly going deranged and mentally unstable. And I have missed my important things because she was controlling me alot. At this point should I just give up and talk to my dad without being encouraged or just silently cry in my room and make scars on my arms. I’ve been depressed since I fell sick and it’s all thanks to my brother cus’ he transmitted (that’s what my dad said). I feel like I’ve been sleeping longer because of my trauma and even my suffering to points of where I just wanna plug myself and stay in my room until campus reopens and I could just escape for real. I haven’t been practicing piano lately and I haven’t been socializing alot because I was silently eating up on my pain and trying to maintain how I’m feeling
Hi there kammy, thank you for reaching out today!
I can hear how much you are going through right now, being controlled, having traumas, and being sick, there’s a lot going on right now. But, the fact that you are here writing and reaching out for support, even think about talking to your dad shows you are still looking for a way through even when everything feels suffocating.
I do want to ask you on a point that you made, making scars on your arms, do you make those scars to cope or is it something more than coping? I am asking because it is concerning to hear it on top you mentioning you are slowly dying. I want to let you know that you are not alone, you deserve support, and support is available for you.
I want to urge you to reach out to someone, speaking to someone could provide the support you need at this time, you can reach out to Mindline at 1771 or SOS at 1767 to speak to someone.