Dear @User1821,
Thank you for trusting us with your story. What you’ve shared is deeply painful, and I want to acknowledge the immense weight of what you’ve been carrying. The trauma you endured as a child was a profound violation of your safety, trust, and innocence, and the fact that your uncle passed away without facing justice or accountability for what he did to you adds another layer of anguish. It’s understandable that you’re feeling overwhelmed, hopeless, and stuck. You deserved justice and validation, and the absence of those things can make the pain feel even more unbearable.
From what you’ve shared, the abuse you endured was never addressed in any way. This has left you feeling trapped, as if the pain has no escape. You mentioned feeling like a “hopeless human being,” which suggests that this unresolved trauma is weighing heavily on your sense of self-worth and your ability to move forward. It is clear that you were impacted negatively and suffered from clinical depression, anxiety, and ADHD, which can make it even harder to navigate these emotions. The lack of justice and closure may be intensifying these conditions, leaving you feeling emotionally and physically drained.
Have you spoken to your family or a professional to help you address your traumatic experience?
Right now, it seems like you might be feeling like a “voice silenced” and a “victim denied justice.” Your feeling of helplessness about the fact that he will never face consequences for what he did. The lack of motivation and energy suggests that you’re emotionally and physically exhausted, which is a common response when trauma resurfaces in such a profound way. You might also be feeling isolated, as though no one truly understands the depth of your pain.
What you need right now is a safe space to process these emotions without judgement. You need validation that your pain is real and that you deserved justice and closure. You will also need support in finding ways to reclaim your sense of power and self-worth, even in the absence of justice. This could include help in managing the symptoms of depression, anxiety, and ADHD, as well as finding ways to honour your experiences and your resilience.
Are you open to seeking help from a therapist? With the therapist, you can work together to:
- Gently explore the impact and the unresolved pain of not receiving justice.
- Develop strategies to manage the intense emotions you’re feeling right now, including anger and helplessness.
- Find ways to honour your experiences and reclaim your sense of power and self-worth, even in the absence of justice.
- Take small, manageable steps to help you regain a sense of control and accomplishment.
- Build on your existing strengths and resilience to create healthier ways of coping.
Healing is a journey, and it’s okay to take it one step at a time. You are not hopeless, and you are not alone. Together, we can work through this and find a way forward. For now, , you’ve already taken a brave step by sharing your story, and that in itself is a sign of strength. Let’s continue this conversation whenever you’re ready.