I am kinda stressed and tired for context I have been doing a programming project related to automating repetitive tasks for the operations team although it has been tough as there were only two interns involved me and another person we managed to get through then she left, she was more experienced and had more knowledge on the project then I had and so I felt more alone moreover, now I am testing the code struggling with the operations work cause I was busy coding while the other interns got to move on to better projects. I asked my boss whether I could join them but considering how I messed up a couple times before with the operations work, I don’t think he is willing to give me a chance moreover, Im pretty sure the entire operations team basically hates me. I feel very burnt out and in the end I just wish to do well in my internship. I spent so much time on the code.
Thank you for sharing as that sounds really heavy, and honestly, it makes sense that you’re exhausted. You were handed a tough project, lost the one person who shared the load and the knowledge, and still kept going. That’s not a small thing. Anyone in your position would feel burnt out and discouraged.
I hear how alone you’ve felt in this, watching others move on to “better” projects while you’re stuck juggling coding and ops, trying not to mess up, trying to prove yourself. When you care this much about doing well, every mistake can start to feel like a verdict on you as a person, not just on the work. That’s a really painful place to be.
It also sounds like you’re being very hard on yourself about how the ops team sees you. I don’t know if they hate you but I do know that stress and burnout can make it feel that way, especially when feedback has been limited or when chances feel closed off. Messing up a few times, especially as an intern, doesn’t mean you’re incapable or not worth trusting. It means you were learning under pressure.
You’ve clearly put a lot of effort into this code, and that matters. Even if it’s messy or still being tested, the fact that you pushed through something this demanding shows persistence and ownership, qualities internships are supposed to develop, not punish.
Right now, it might help to zoom out just a little: you don’t have to prove everything at once. It’s okay to ask for specific support like clearer expectations for testing, or a quick check-in to align on priorities instead of carrying all of this alone. Wanting to do well doesn’t mean you have to suffer in silence.
You’re tired because you’ve been trying. That doesn’t mean you’ve failed. It means you’ve reached a point where you deserve some support too. Be kind and gentle to yourself <3
Hey @user1509,
From your post, it sounds like you’ve spent a lot of time explaining what happened who left, how the work shifted, and why things became harder. Reading it, it feels like you’ve been carrying the need to justify each step so others won’t misunderstand your effort.
That kind of explaining often shows up when confidence has taken a hit. When you’re not sure your work will be seen fairly, it’s natural to start reasoning things out in advance, almost as a way to protect yourself. It usually means you’ve been under pressure for some time.
I also noticed how quickly you judged yourself over the ops mistakes and you’re already being far harsher on yourself than anyone here is. Thoughts like “they basically hate me” sound less like facts, and more like what happens when exhaustion and self-doubt pile up.
I want to pause on this: coming onto the forum to share was a sensible choice. You didn’t deflect responsibility or blame others. You reflected on what went wrong and your part in it, and that already says something about how seriously you take this job.
One thing that may help to hold in mind is this, mistakes in situations like this are part of learning, not proof of failure. Whether you join the others or stay at your current assignment, missteps are expected, especially when roles change and support drops. When pressure increases and resources decrease, errors don’t mean you’re inadequate; they mean the situation became harder to manage.
It also sounds like your mind is already jumping ahead to what your boss thinks, or whether the team has written you off. Those conclusions tend to show up when burnout sets in. For now, it may be enough to ground yourself in this: you put in effort, you stayed with a difficult task, and you’re still learning.
If you want to share, do you have anyone within the company you can turn to for guidance on the programming side of the work? Or are there ways you’ve been trying to support your own learning that feel especially draining right now?
hey @user1509 , thanks for sharing, your concerns are so valid :”) it seems like you’ve been carrying a lot on your own. from learning a tough programming project to losing the only other intern who knew the system better AND juggling ops work at the same time, anyone would feel burnt out in your shoes 
when things go wrong at work it can feel very personal (i’ve messed up at my internships too) but i’ve come realise that most people are honestly just busy and focused on their own stuff. messing up a few times especially when you were stretched thin doesn’t define you!
its clear that you care a lot and really want to do well – i think that alone already says a lot about u!! you’ve been doing your best at work and showing up for your company. i’m proud of you for how far you’ve come and i know u can do it! wishing you all the best in the remaining of your intern journey and i’m here to listen, you dont have to carry this alone 
