i always feel so tired during the day and once it reaches night time i can’t fall asleep at all… i will just roll around in bed and overthink about a bunch of stuff and the cycle repeats! i tried to count sheep and stop overthinking but i can’t control myself.
i also wonder if i suffer from anxiety/ depression. i am always worried about everything especially future events and uncertainty such as whether i can make friends in uni… i also think that i place too much importance on my body image. I have severe acne and i am currently on accutane and i am always so worried how others view me that i keep looking at myself in the mirror… i always feel so down because i feel ugly cause of how bad my skin is. I also used to vomit my food out whenever i indulge cause i feel fat and yes i know it is unhealthy and i have refrained myself from doing that. sometimes i just feel that i cannot function properly because all i think about in the moment is how i look, do other people think i am ugly, think i am fat and so on and it ruins my mood for the day. sometimes when i look at candid pictures of myself, i will feel terrible about myself because i look absolutely like ■■■■.
i also worry about unnecessary stuff such as like did i lock the door properly or did i close the fridge… that sometimes i will walk back home just to check cause i am afraid that someone will rob the house although there is no reason to believe so
i also feel easily irritated and annoyed over everything that sometimes i just lash out or give people the cold shoulder for no reason.