Letting go of a friend

Okay, so I was friends with someone, let’s call them K. I met K on the bus, and they were really nice to me and accepted me into their friend group. They had all gone to the same school previously, so they all knew each other, and I knew that so I wasn’t jealous. Anyway, I met new people. Let’s call them C, R, and B. C and R are twins, and B is their cousin. They all knew each other because they are family, and I met C first. I managed to introduce C and K, and met R and B later, and immediately they were like besties. It was like they forgot about me, and didn’t realise I was the one who started the friend group. I was fine with it at first, as I had others in the group who I talked to, but then we had to deal with a toxic friend. That was hard on me as B was really close to this friend so B started being really sad and we were worried about them. So all of our attention was on B, and when they got better, it was like K couldn’t keep their attention off of them. Like they forgot I existed. I was able to cope with it for a while, but it started to get to be too much for me. I reached out to B because I trusted them the most, and they were the most likely to try to change. (Btw this is about me feeling like my friends have a clear favorite and don’t like/ ignore me.) So they tell me to also tell K, so I do. Now I don’t directly tell them, instead I send them a picture of a journal I keep on my computer. I was ranting about them not including me earlier that day. So I send it to them. I was using curse words and all of that because I didn’t know anyone would see it at the time. K gets really offended and starts blaming me, saying “you basically tested me and I failed. It’s not about you all the time anyway. And you overreact TBH.” I had put my head down during lunch and I put in my journal that I had a feeling they didn’t care so I was watching them and felt sick and put my head down. And yes, it was also because I wanted to see if they would notice (they didn’t), but that was not the main goal. And K is twisting it to make it seem like it’s my fault. They have managed to get B and R to turn against me, and I didn’t even show it to R. Maybe K leaked it; I don’t know. But I can’t sit with my friends anymore because I feel like they ALL hate me, and K recently texted me saying we couldn’t be friends and was kicking me out of the bus friend group as well. I feel like I have no friends, and I truly trusted K and B with my feelings. How do I let them go enough to move on to new people without telling them all that I hate K and B’s guts? Would love to know your opinion.

Friend mistreated me and always tried to lovebomb me to fix it. I got upset at her over something and didn’t talk to her. After a while I went to talk to her about it and she got angry and said i was not there for her (because i needed space after what she did) and she said I was a manipulator. I knew I had to let her go because she bought out the worst in me and din’t make me feel well

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