Last month, I lose a small portion of money by getting scammed from a job task related scams. It isn’t a huge amount, but i do self blame and then I move on as a small lesson and learning journey on how they work, and the signs to watch out for
After 2 weeks, there’s a friend of mine asked for a business loan from me, where I had to borrowed to licensed lenders so he can get the funds to get back to his feet (as he gotten scammed recently too). He was trustworthy, previous instances he will return when he did borrow, which I entrust him that he will return (as he is business person that sells IT parts)
By a certain date earlier this April he supposed to ask to return but he didnt, said he went to hospital and needed some more to get back to his feet. Which I did give some amount. And he say a few days will return again. But it didnt happen. And when the date of return to the lenders approach, i couldn’t pay back and told them the truth, yet they don’t care and it is giving me pressure. At the moment I am trying to liquidate assets to repay the debt
For the fren that owes me, I think now i can’t even think of him as friend now. But what I can do is to acquire some IT parts of him as a form of trade of the money lost from his end. And then, closing the chapter with him
From these incidents, I feel self blaming, why do I trust someone like that easily? I am helpful but getting abused this way. I felt depressed and helpless. Doing things like work, finding jobs, and daily becomes unmotivated.
What I am doing now is to press on, thinking of the better future. And making sure money is something really hard to come by and must be protected to make sure things like this dosent happen again
