hey, im so.eone who has been exposed to new age media for aong time, from the romanticization of mental health, to the tarot , spirituality, and manifestation communities, ive been in it all. i used to hold a strong belief that this was the truth , and anyone who cohldnt see hh were wrong, by th now i realise, how blinded i was by it.i start to realise how many people were right about me. ive let my life slip away for some time, and i want to get it back.but thw shame i feel and regret i hold for not doi g things kinda stop me, and im not all over it, somedays i still feel the pull towards it. the romanticisation of mental health caused me to develop a fear towards life in general and made me a very toxic person, i began to be scared of social interaction, even though i was the biggest social butterfly wjwn young, i became insufferable and started hating evryone and everytbing, my health was also affected, i just wanted to let things out yk, and i hope i can give myself a better life with time.
Thank you for sharing this so openly. It takes strength to reflect so deeply and honest about your past, where you have been and where you want to go.
The fact that you can recognize how certain beliefs affected you, and that you want something better for yourself, already shows that you are on the right path. With time, compassion, and small steps, you absolutely can reclaim your life and build something healthier and more fulfilling.
I hope you continue to give yourself grace.
@user6093 Thanks for sharing! It’s totally okay to feel the pull of past beliefs or habits, especially when they’ve been part of your identity for a while. But the fact that you’re reflecting on it, recognising how it affected you, and even wanting something different for yourself — that’s where real change starts.
Negative feelings of shame and regret can feel heavy, but they don’t define you. What matters more is this moment right now, where you’re choosing to be aware and honest with yourself. It’s great that you’re trying to unlearn and grow to be a better version of yourself.
Take your time and be gentle on yourself. Jiayou!! 