After almost 7 yrs after, my PTSD turned into CPTSD and stop working. For the past 2 months, I have somehow started developing an interest towards Lego.
Well…I used to have Lego sets when I was young, and the last set I owned was bought by my mom when I was 11 years old.
And 5 yrs later, my life turned hell, when she turned to theft and got caught,
But…still…not sure why, 2 months ago I decided to dig out all my childhood Lego sets and start playing with them, and I feel so peaceful when I do. And now I wanted to get even more sets, but haven’t been working for 7 yrs, I don’t have the kind of money to spend on Lego after using part of my financial aid to care for my ESA.
And for the past 2 months me and my ESA is trying hard to cope after he lost most of his “jobs”. And seriously…how in the world that even dogs get retrenched, and i am the one that is paying him to work and not the place that he work at.
Hey @user1446,
Thank you for sharing this with us.
Reading what you’ve shared, I get a sense that a lot has happened over the past few years. You mentioned living with PTSD, having to stop work, and some very difficult experiences involving your family. All of that sounds like a lot for any one person to carry.
What you shared about your Lego sets really stood out to me. It sounds like after many years, you’ve found yourself returning to something that once brought you joy, and that building those sets have been giving you a sense of peace and calm during what has otherwise been a difficult period.
I’m curious what it’s been like for you to reconnect with Lego after all this time. Do you think it’s the building itself that feels calming, or is there something else about the experience that you find comforting? 
At the same time, I can hear some frustration too. Finding something that brings you comfort, while also having to think about finances and what is realistically affordable isn’t easy. It also sounds like you’ve been carrying additional worries about your ESA and the changes they’ve been going through recently. I can imagine how difficult that must be, especially when you’ve invested so much time, care and resources into supporting them.
(just wanted to make sure we’re understanding correctly - when you mentioned ESA, are you referring to an emotional support animal here?)
For now, I’m glad that you’ve found something that brings you moments of peace, even if it’s just for a little while. Sometimes those moments can be important when we’re navigating challenging periods in our lives.
We’d be happy to hear more about how things have been for you and your ESA if you’d like to share.
Take care. 