Recently, I’ve been feeling very unmotivated. I can’t remember the last time I didn’t worry about my future. I’m on autopilot mode but also screaming internally because I want to take a minute but barely even have a second.
The thought of leaving school, job-hunting and actually working in corporate scares me endlessly because it feels like a life sentence.
How did my parents and grandparents ever do this life thing? Am I soft for finding this daunting, rather than seeing it as a “natural” part of life? How do I go on?
Dear @user439896
Thank you for sharing what you have been feeling and thinking.
Please know that you are not ‘soft’ or weak for finding life daunting. Instead, I believe you are exhausted. I have seen that being constantly worried about the future keeps our mind in survival mode. In this mode, motivation naturally dissipates.
I also sense that being in autopilot with panic underneath is a sign you haven’t had space to breathe.
The fear of school ending and corporate life feeling like a life sentence is very relatable, especially today. Your parents and grandparents lived in a different world with more stability and fewer pressures. Struggling now suggests that the present system is harder compared to before.
I honestly believe we don’t need to have our whole life figured out. All we need to do is take the next small step, not the rest of our life all at once. With consistency and steady effort, we will get to our own unique, rewarding destinations.