These days I’ve been extremely self aware. Every time my mom talks about the future, I can’t help but panic knowing we’re all going to die eventually. But I know people have these sometimes. The problem is the fact I look around and realize that nobody else is realizing that we are all going to die soon. I see them do such foolish things like they don’t realize their actions are affecting the future we are supposed to live in. I feel like nobody realizing and regrets their actions, like they don’t care that other people are living too.
With being said, I too am one of those people who do nothing about things i should have control over. Like, I spend days laying in my bed knowing I SHOULD do something productive but my body freezes knowing if I stay like this, I’ll spend the rest of my life doing nothing at all. It’s like my reasons for WANTING to do something are also the reasons I CANT bring myself do anything and I’m stuck in a loop of self sabotaging myself even though I know what’s best for myself. I’m sure there’s someone out there in the exact same situation as me. So I just want to ask, how does someone stop feeling like the world is going to end when it very much is?
the world is not ending. I think you have not enough rest obviously, so you may continue to sleep on till you feel better. take some panadol, aspirin or painkillers if required. but before you go to sleep, please remember to compensate the living; give to charity or you can PayNow to someone immediately.
Hey @user6390. I hear you. It is really overwhelming to be so aware of everything all at once. I can hear how exhausting it must be to hold the weight of “the future,” the world, and your own expectations at the same time.
You also mentioned feeling like you’re the only one who notices how temporary life is. A lot of people actually do think about it, but not everyone talks about it. Some people cope by ignoring it, others by overworking, and others by doing small things that make life meaningful to them. There isn’t one “right” way, just the one that works for you.
A perspective that might help: knowing life is temporary can also be a reason to treat yourself more gently, not push harder. Instead of “I should be doing more,” maybe the question becomes, “What would make this moment meaningful or manageable for me?”
Whatever pace you move at is okay. You deserve space to breathe, to feel, and to take things one small step at a time. I hope you can give yourself credit for the awareness and honesty you’re showing. Sitting with feelings this big isn’t easy, and you’re still here trying 
Wishing you moments of calm and clarity ahead, and please know you don’t have to figure everything out all at once. You’re doing your best, and that’s enough for now 
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Hey @user6390,
I read what you described, about your whole body tightening the moment you try to rest… it sounded like you’ve been living inside a space of fear.
And when you compared your sleep paralysis to other people’s stories, theirs sounding “typical” and yours feeling unreal, dream-like… that kind of comparison can make youfeel even less steady, like you’re experiencing something no one else understands.
I’m holding how scary this must be. before we go anywhere else, maybe we just trace the edges of your experience a little:
when you first lie down, is there even a short moment where your body feels okay… or does the tension hit you straightaway?
(this helps us understand if your body is slipping into that fear state immediately or building toward it.)
When your breath tightens, does it feel like you’re breathing too fast… or more like the air just isn’t reaching you at all?
(breath can be one of the biggest triggers for that dream-like, not-quite-real feeling.)
And because you mentioned your sleep paralysis feeling so different from others:
On the nights when it happens, does it come right as you’re drifting off, or does it appear later when your body is already exhausted?
(exhaustion can make your mind wake before your body does, which often creates that derealised, half-dream state.)
When you feel manageable, we hope to hear from you…The goal isn’t to diagnose you, it’s to understand how your body is trying to cope with so much fear at once, so that we don’t leave you alone with it.
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Thank you for reading my comment. To answer the questions : When I first lie down, the tension seems to hit me straight away, like I’m afraid to be in a vulnerable position, like anything can happen to me from this point on. When my breath tightens, it feels like both reasons you mentioned except the reason my breath tightens is because I feel like air isn’t reaching to me at all. This then prompts me to begin quickening and deepening my breath. On the nights that my sleep paralysis happens, now that you mention it, I realize it usually happens whenever my body is already exhausted from the day or because of my tighten breathing as mentioned earlier.
I feel like my body is self sabotaging itself and I don’t know why it’s been getting worse lately:sweat_smile: I hope this information can show a more depth look at how my body has been acting whenever I attempt to sleep. Thank you again for reading and trying to understand 
Thank you so much for you kind words and advice. I really love that way of going about it. I plan to implement what you’ve told me starting today. Thank you again for reading and taking the time to understand and help me. Bless your heart❤️
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