Man I don’t know what is wrong with me. I want to be diagnosed with a mental health condition. I want to be told that I am actually not okay, or I might go crazy. I’ve been tortured by pessimistic thoughts and depressing feelings for so long, but it never gets bad enough for me to be certain I have a mental illness. Can someone just tell me I’m mentally screwed up and not okay… i don’t want all of my suffering in silence to be for absolutely nothing in the end..
Hi @sweetgardenia6996,
When you’ve been suffering quietly for a long time, there’s a real need for that suffering to be seen and validated, not just brushed off as normal life stress.
I am not able to diagnose you and honestly even if I could, I don’t think a label is really what you’re after. What you’re really asking for is for someone to believe you. The fact that you’ve been sitting with pessimistic thoughts and depressing feelings for a long time, in silence, is real suffering. You don’t need to hit some threshold of bad enough" for it to count. It already counts.
The tricky thing about mental health is that it exists on a spectrum and a lot of people spend years in that grey zone of not okay but not obviously unwell enough and that in-between space can feel incredibly lonely and invalidating. It is like you’re not sick enough to deserve help but not well enough to be okay.
You deserve support regardless of whether it comes with a formal diagnosis attached. Have you spoken to a doctor or counsellor about what you’ve been experiencing? Sometimes just having a professional hear you out can be the first step toward feeling less alone in it.
If you feel that you’re not ready to see one, feel free to reach out National Mindline 1771 by dropping them a call at 1771 or WhatsApp 66691771 to speak to a counsellor anonymously.
Take care!