I… I feel like giving up on everything. Feel like ■■■■ when my own siblings treat their friends better than me. My siblings make fun of me. I am the oldest . When someone scolds me I cry easily. One time when I got hit by a ball in the face..broke my spectacles and just stared at my hands shaking..i always feel like my friends dont even care about me , the way they treat me is worst than how well I treat them. I feel lonely even with friends.I feel like I want to off myself too but I am scared of the pain that comes after I always try to act like everything is fine tooI cant help but try to not cry when someone tell me to smile..Can I ask.. what am I suffering from …
Dear @mindfultomato3051
Thank you for reaching out.
Reading your post, I can sense how alone you are feeling. You are also hurting especially since sadly, those who are close to you have been unkind. That is indeed a lot to deal with all by yourself. Anyone in your shoes would also feel low.
Please know that there are caring and competent professionals who you can reach out to for support. They will walk alongside you through this challenging journey and help you through it at your own pace and comfort level.
One avenue I recommend is for you to call the 24/7 counsellor operated national mindline 1771 for immediate care. Not only do the counsellors here listen without judgement, they can connect you with suitable follow up resources and services.
For now, stay somewhere you feel a bit safer and try simple grounding (like naming things around you).
If any time you feel overwhelmed and unsafe please call Samaritans of Singapore (SOS) at 1767 immediately or go to the nearest A&E department of a hospital. What are you doing now to keep safe?