As the eldest sibling, I am usually responsible for deciding when,or even if,my younger siblings can go on vacation. This time, I do not want to go on the trip, which consists only of me, my siblings, and some close friends. I am completely drained from university and want to spend my days off at home. However, my siblings have already planned everything; since they cannot go without me, they are trying to persuade me to change my mind. I am worried that my exhausted mood will ruin the experience for everyone. When I spoke to my parents about it, they simply said I was being indecisive. I have been crying over this, the guilt is unbearable.What should I do?
Dear @evelyn11
Thank you for reaching out and sharing the dilemma you are currently in. The struggle you are facing between the two choices before you is fully understandable.
Recognising how burnout you are currently feeling, may I encourage you to speak to your siblings as honestly as possible about your current situation and the challenges you are facing. While you care for them deeply, you are deeply exhausted so recovering is a priority for you.
In parallel, I encourage you to speak to a Counsellor and address the burnout.
Please do be kind to yourself during this difficult period. You are already carrying a lot right now and there is no need to carry this decision with guilt on top of it too.