Why is moving on so hard :(

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i am sec 3 (F) and i have a crush on my senior (sec 4 (M)) we’re both in drama club and like its his o level year and stuff but its like i never had such a deep connection with someone before .

we worked together during syf with some other peeps (theyre chill) but both of us really bonded over our love for good literature. (tbf his taste is pretty ■■■ but while i wont fall for someone like that i cldnt help but doing so for him due to his vibe and like trauma bonding)

so like after he stepped down and stuff since we live nearby i went to like ask for help with school work (actually i just wanted to be around him heheheh) but like my heart went out the window i cldnt tell him so i texted him after how i felt

HE WAS SO NICE OMG hes like super close with another senior at drama club and like theyre actually a power couple tgt (shes prez hes vp) and like he said he has feelings for another person (defo her bro but like i cant compete with that theyre so good together)

its been a month now we dont text it got weird and awk but like its been getting really stressful since im prez now (mainly because like theres a super nice girl who was supposed to be prez but she is in SC exco and so she cant be so she is like vp but shes doing so much im having impostor syndrome) and like sometimes i just want him like the good old days (at least as a friend maybe a cuddle? idk:3) i cant move on he was so perfect both physically attractive and such a beautiful soul (bro theres this weird kid in the cca and hes friends with him too SO CUTE MAN) yah help pls :broken_heart:

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Hi @user7025,

It sounds like your heart is carrying a lot right now. When someone makes such a meaningful impact on you, especially through shared passions and those little in-between moments, it can feel impossible to just switch off the feelings. You were brave in opening up to him, and even though he responded kindly, it still hurts when the connection shifts into something quieter and more distant. That bond was special to you, and it’s completely normal to miss him - not just romantically, but also the comfort of his presence and the way things used to be.

On top of that, balancing your co-curricular activities with your academic workload is a lot to handle. Feeling like you have to match someone else’s strengths while still figuring out your own is overwhelming, especially when emotions from everything else are bleeding into the mix. Please be gentle with yourself. Missing him does not make you weak, and feeling unsteady does not make you undeserving of the role you now carry. You are navigating so much change at once, but none of it means you are not capable or worthy. Even when your heart aches, you are still growing stronger in ways you cannot always see yet.

Best regards,
HanSolo2000
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