Ever since I enter the current school I’m in now, I have been feeling emotional. Initially, I didn’t feel anything when I first enter this school, but ever since time pass by, I’m always overthinking and worrying about my future as I’m aware i won’t be able to do well and adapt to the school I’m currently in now as it’s so different from my previous school, all my close friends are in other schools btw. As I’m an introvert, to me, it’s quite hard to communicate with different teammates especially the fact that the teammates that is randomly assigned kept changing, friends that I have made in my current school is always in the different class or group as me, which makes me feel worser as everyone have their friends with them. Moving on… I realised I started to feel very insecure in school, till the point that I will hug my bag during class… which I wouldn’t in the past. Sometimes there’s assignment, requiring us to do presentation slides on spot during lunch n present afterwards, n I realised as time pass by, I wasn’t able to present properly even though I know what I should present, I will started to pause and not being able to say things I wanted to (I memories n practice before presentation) it’s till the point I couldn’t pronounce the words properly even though I know how to… then my teacher will kept highlighting my issues to the whole class about me not being able to pronounce and present properly which is an very bad example. (I was able to present smoothly and with confidence in the past but not now anymore btw). Hence I started “escaping” by trying not to go school on presentation days cause I realised I couldn’t fell asleep at night, thinking that there’s presentation next day n my heart will pump like mad, everytime after sch or during holidays I will feel dame tired and sleep whole day and couldn’t wake up. Then everyday after school there is assignments need to be submitted on the day itself and I will sleep very late just to finished it even though im really exhausted from school. I started crying as I felt I didn’t get a grade that I wanted hence I’m lost on what exactly I want, and I totally do not enjoy school at all, it just fells tired and I just want to escape n graduate. Moving on, I also started not to listen in class already as I have been day dreaming and loosing focus , sleeping etc in class. Honestly idk how am I going to survive school… I really rather just study at home then going to school and I rlly don’t see my future lol…
Hi @QwQ,
Thank you for sharing what you’ve been going through. It takes a lot of courage to open up about these feelings, especially when everything feels so overwhelming right now. I hear you—you’ve been putting in so much effort, and it’s exhausting to feel like nothing is working out the way you hoped. It’s clear that you care deeply about doing well, and it’s understandable to feel this way when things feel so different from what you’re used to.
It sounds like the transition to this new school has been much harder than you anticipated. Being separated from your close friends and having to adapt to changing teammates and new routines is a lot to handle. It makes sense that this would lead to feelings of insecurity and even fear about the future.
You mentioned wanting to avoid school on presentation days and feeling exhausted just thinking about them. That anxiety is valid—presentations can be intimidating, especially when you’re feeling judged. It’s so hard when a teacher calls attention to something you’re struggling with. It’s okay to feel upset about that; anyone in your position would.
Right now, it seems like school has become a source of stress rather than a place to grow. It might help to start with small, manageable steps to ease some of the pressure you’re feeling. For example, is there a way to break your assignments into smaller chunks or find a study schedule that gives you a bit more rest?
You also mentioned hugging your bag during class and avoiding interactions. That’s your way of protecting yourself, and it’s okay to have that space. If it feels right, could you consider engaging in a brief interaction with someone, such as a smile or a quick hello, as a first step towards reconnecting with others?
Finally, you’re not alone in feeling this way. Many people go through tough transitions, and it doesn’t mean you’re failing. You’re still that capable and hard-working person who used to present confidently—it’s just that right now, you’re in a different place, and that’s okay. It’s not about rushing to fix everything all at once; it’s about finding little ways to feel a bit more stable day by day.
We are here for you, and I hope you’ll keep sharing how you’re feeling. You deserve support through this. You’re stronger than you feel right now, and you can get through this, one step at a time.