everything in my life has just been going…downhill. My grades — top in math in sec 2 to failing in JC2. Lowest chemistry grades in the level. parents health declining. crying more and more everyday. I can’t get anything done. I don’t want to do it anymore. There’s really no point in anything. Yet im still imagining myself failing my As spectacularly, drinking coffee at 12am against all reasonable judgement and having heart palpitations the whole night.. I can’t drop out now, obviously, at J2?? Everything that I once took comfort in now feels uncomfortable. Can’t even read a page in a book without feeling drained. But i might just be making all this up, right? Can someone tell me that I’m just over exaggerating everything in my head and I need to stop making excuses for myself and start studying now and be filled with hope for my future..
hey @sweetgardenia6996,
I read what you wrote about your grades dropping, your parents’ health declining, crying more often, and feeling like you can’t get anything done.
What stood out was the part where you asked if someone could just tell you that you’re exaggerating and need to stop making excuses.
From what you’ve shared, I don’t think that’s what is happening.
You’ve described a lot of things changing at the same time. Struggling academically when you used to do well. Worrying about your parents. Feeling drained by things you used to enjoy. Crying more frequently. Those are difficult things to carry, especially while trying to get through JC2.
I also noticed that you’re still thinking about your A levels, still worrying about the outcome, and still trying to push yourself to study even when you’re exhausted. That doesn’t sound like someone who doesn’t care. It sounds like someone who is under a lot of pressure and is finding it harder to keep up with everything.
Sometimes when people have been pushing themselves for a long time, they start judging themselves for not being able to perform the way they used to. Then every unfinished task becomes more proof that they’re “not trying hard enough”, even when they’re already struggling.
I am a little concerned when you said, “I don’t want to do it anymore” and “there’s really no point in anything.” Could you share a bit more?
For now, what you’ve written, it sounds like you’ve been dealing with quite a lot, and that deserves to be taken seriously.
Hey there, thanks for sharing something so personal. I don’t think you’re overreacting at all. From what you’ve shared, it sounds like you’re carrying an incredible amount of stress. Your grades, your parents’ health, A-levels, and the exhaustion of trying to keep going when everything feels harder than it used to seems to be overwhelming you.
The fact that you’re crying more, struggling to focus, and finding even things you once enjoyed draining doesn’t sound like laziness or excuses. It sounds like you’ve been overwhelmed for a long time.
You don’t need someone to tell you to “just study harder.” You need some kindness too. Right now, try not to judge yourself for struggling. Anyone carrying this much would find it difficult.
And if these feelings are becoming too heavy, please reach out to a trusted teacher, school counselor, or someone you trust. You don’t have to carry all of this alone.