i never know how to put my thoughts into words but i’ll try.
long story short, i would say all my depressed feelings and anxiousness stemmed from my past with my unhealthy relationship with a sport i loved so much. i would say perfectionism drove myself to the grave and i made the toughest decision to call it quits after 10 years of hard work. this happened almost 3 years ago
i feel like things are getting bad again recently. i’m not sure what happened, i know i’m over it. i’ve been feeling so depressed and anxious about my future lately. life feels so bleak, i have no goals and nothing to work towards. i’ve lost interest in everything, i can’t focus on my work, i keep doomscrolling social media and i just can’t do anything. everything i do just reminds me of the failure i am. sometimes i don’t even try cause i know i’ll fail anyway.
i noticed that i feel extremely depressed and anxious about 1-2 weeks before my period this has happened about 4 times this year. however i didn’t actually get my period and it hasn’t come for 2 months. i’m not pregnant and i just don’t know what’s happening.
i feel so lost, im sorry it’s so messy my thoughts are all over the place and i don’t know what to do anymore. i’m so tired and hurt and i feel like i have no reason to feel like this because nothing in particular has happened recently