i find it hard to find hobbies or anything interesting to me. everything seems like its not for me. i used to be active in sports but ever since my mental declined i just stopped and i just dont have it in me to get back into it. the depression and anxiety i guess. i look around and everyone has their own hobbies and i just feel like nothing. And for careers its just the same. i dont know what i want to do or be. right now i just dont want to exist.
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Dear @idkanymore
Thank you for reaching out. From what you have shared about your worries about hobbies or careers—I believe it’s also about feeling lost, disconnected, and struggling to find meaning in things that once brought you joy. That’s a really heavy place to be, and I just want to acknowledge that your feelings are real, valid, and not something you have to go through alone.
Losing interest in things you once loved is tough. It can feel like you’re stuck, watching life move around you while you feel nothing inside—but please know, you are not nothing. Even if it’s hard to see it right now, you still matter.
You don’t need to have it all figured out right now—whether it’s hobbies, careers, or even just how to get through the day. It’s okay to be in a place of uncertainty. Instead of forcing yourself to find something big or exciting, maybe start really, really small. A simple walk. A song you used to like. A tiny action that doesn’t have to mean anything—just a gentle way to remind yourself that you’re still here, and that’s enough.
You don’t have to do this alone, either. If you have someone to talk to, even if it’s just a small conversation, please reach out. And if you ever feel like the weight is too much, there are people who genuinely want to help—you don’t have to carry this by yourself.
Even if right now it feels like nothing makes sense, you are still worthy of love, support, and a future that isn’t weighed down by this pain. It’s okay to not know what’s next. All you need to do is keep going, one step at a time. You’re not alone in this, and you’re not broken. You’re just going through something incredibly hard—and you deserve care, especially from yourself. 
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what sports did you play? maybe going back or even starting a new sport could help with your depression and anxiety
i did fencing and mostly skateboarding when i have the time. but right now i dont really feel like getting back into sports. ive started journaling recently to maybe help process my thoughts and feelings.
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what kind of journalling do you do?
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Hi @idkanymore! I’m very sorry you’re experiencing this. It’s difficult when anxiety and melancholy make everything seem weighty and far away, even activities you used to like. You’re simply going through a tremendously difficult time; you’re not broken.
You don’t need to solve every problem at once. Perhaps concentrate on the little, easy activities that feel at least a little bit better, like relaxing in the sun or listening to music. Furthermore, it’s OK to not yet know what you want to accomplish. It’s enough to get through the day.
You are not a burden, and you are not alone. It might be helpful to talk to someone you trust if it seems like too much. At any moment, I’m there to listen as well.
a mix of everything generally. i try to write whatever feels important to me at the moment. but honestly i just see it as a conversation with myself and also tracking how my feelings and thoughts evolve over time.
Hi OP, I understand that feeling of emptiness. I used to really love drawing, but university really burnt me out that I saw drawing as a chore instead of something fun I like doing. I was also facing depression and anxiety for my future, and it really led to my mental decline.
It really took a while for me to pick up drawing again. After graduating, I still struggled to find fun in it. Went to go counselling and eventually got myself medicated, and it significantly improved my mental health. May I ask if you have the resources and means to get checked up by psychiatrists? I understand if you cannot as I had to endure my university years unmedicated.
Perhaps you can keep asking yourself the question, “what makes me curious?” I find that when I want to draw something, what drives me is the “I want to draw this because I’m curious how it’ll turn out.” It’s easier said than done because I’ve had times where I’d rather just rot in bed and not do anything because I’m so overwhelmed with depression. It’s a tedious and slow process of healing, and I’m still learning to be patient with myself.
I do hope you’ll find that spark again, OP. It really does take time, unfortunately. But perhaps you can try to reignite that little curiosity or that little spark within you.
that sounds like a nice way to process things and reflect internally! i’m also into journalling but shifted more to collecting stuff to decorate pages n then include some writings.
there were resources available, but it felt like I didn’t deserve to use them. also because i didn’t want to trouble anyone or feel like a burden. It’s hard to explain, but I felt like my problems weren’t "bad enough"to warrant help. most of the time everything just feels overwhelming and empty but i do hope as time goes by things will be better and change.
Haha. I also felt that way, believe it or not. My depression was bad but I was still “high functioning”; I was still able to go to work, eat food, keep up good hygiene, etc. I thought to myself that if I just went counselling and learnt how to cope with my depression better, it would get better. But after trying it out for so long, I decided to try getting medicated again as I have the financial means to do so. I’m glad to say that it has significantly helped me cope with problems better. Sometimes I still do get sad, that familiar sense of sadness, but it’s not as overwhelming to the point I’d rather just give up.
Of course, everyone is different. For some people, medications don’t work for them, and they have to work harder to cultivate a nurturing lifestyle. However, if you are having trouble to get out of that emptiness, I think it won’t hurt to give other answers a try.
You say you don’t want to trouble anyone or feel like a burden. I am here to say that you do not need to prove your worth to anyone. I personally don’t believe in “quantifying” pain–pain is pain. No matter the severity of the pain, you deserve to feel better. You deserve to feel well.
Take it one day at a time. I do hope you’ll find that spark in life again 
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