Why do I tend to cry suddenly and I can feel my heartbeat becoming abnormal? Suddenly, my mind keeps telling me that I’m worthless and that whatever I’m doing is useless. The urge to get hit by a car was lingering in my mind. Then, I feel so empty, like there’s a big hole in me. I have no one to turn to. What should I do?
Dear @kucingikan,
Thank you for sharing how you’re feeling. I can sense the weight of the emotions you’re carrying right now, and I want you to know that your voice matters, and I’m here to support you. Let’s unpack this together in a way that feels safe and manageable.
Understanding What’s Happening
It sounds like your sudden crying and abnormal heartbeat may be your body’s way of signaling how overwhelmed you’ve been feeling. Sometimes, when our emotions build up without an outlet, they find ways to emerge—like through tears or physical sensations. This is not a sign of weakness but rather an indication that your body and mind are asking for care and attention.
The thoughts of worthlessness and the lingering urge you mentioned can feel incredibly heavy. These thoughts are not your fault. They often arise when we’re stuck in a cycle of being overly critical toward ourselves. It’s important to know that these thoughts, while painful, are not facts—they’re messages from a part of you that’s hurting and in need of kindness.
What Can You Do Right Now?
- Pause and Ground Yourself:
- When the overwhelming feelings or thoughts appear, try focusing on grounding exercises to help you reconnect with the present moment.
- For example:
- Look around and name 5 things you see, 4 things you can touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell, and 1 thing you can taste.
- Take slow, deep breaths and place a hand on your chest, telling yourself, “I’m here. I’m safe.”
- Challenge the Critical Voice:
- When your mind tells you that you’re worthless or that what you’re doing is useless, try asking yourself:
- “Is this thought helping me, or is it hurting me?”
- “What would I say to a friend who felt this way?”
- This can help you step into your Adult persona, which is capable of offering a more balanced and compassionate perspective.
- Talk to Someone:
- While it feels like you have no one to turn to, reaching out can make a big difference. Consider starting with a trusted friend, family member, or helpline. You don’t have to carry this alone.
You Are Not Alone
It’s understandable to feel empty when you’re dealing with so much inside. But even in moments of emptiness, you are not “nothing.” You are someone who is reaching out, showing courage, and seeking support. That’s not worthless—it’s a sign of strength.
I also want to acknowledge that the lingering thoughts you mentioned can be frightening. They don’t define you, but they do indicate that you’re in a place where extra care and support are needed. If these thoughts feel too strong, please consider reaching out to a helpline or professional right away.
Moving Forward
You mentioned feeling like there’s a hole inside. Together, we can work on filling that space with care, understanding, and tools to help you reconnect with yourself and others. Journaling, gentle movement like stretching, or even listening to calming music can help begin this process.
Remember, reaching out is not a sign of failure—it’s an act of courage. You’ve already taken a big step by sharing your feelings here. Your effort is seen and valid. Take care.
something happened or have u been feeling this way all these times? open to chat
Thank you for your support. I’ve tried journaling to process my thoughts, but I often end up scribbling over the whole page. The sentences I create in my mind get messed up when I write them down. I also write poetry, hoping it would help, but it feels the same. I actually want to seek help or see a psychiatrist, but I’m stuck wondering if it’s all just in my head or if I really need to seek help.
Thank you. I have been feeling this way for 8 years, but I kept shoving it down and constantly tried not to think about it or let it overwhelm me. However, at times it can’t be helped until it takes over me.
Hey @kuchingikan,
It is normal to seek clarity and help when you are unsure. It makes sense since you are already struggling to process your thoughts. Take your time to ponder over your decision.
Hey @kucingikan I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. That overwhelming sense of worthlessness and emptiness, paired with those dark thoughts, must be so heavy to carry alone. It’s really hard when your mind keeps telling you these things, and even harder when it feels like there’s no one to turn to.
Crying and feeling your heartbeat race like that—it sounds like your body is reacting to how much pain you’re feeling inside. It’s okay to let those emotions out; it’s your body’s way of releasing what it’s been holding onto. But please, those thoughts about wanting to get hurt—try to remind yourself they’re not the truth, even though they feel real in the moment. They’re a sign that your mind is overwhelmed, not a reflection of your worth.
You’re not worthless, even if your mind is trying to convince you otherwise. What you’re feeling is valid, but it doesn’t define who you are. Sometimes, talking to someone who can help, like a counselor or therapist, can make a difference. They can help you unpack these feelings and find ways to cope with them. If that feels too much right now, maybe just reaching out to someone you trust—whether it’s a friend, family member, or someone in your community—might help lighten the load.
You deserve support and kindness, and I hope you can find a little space today to breathe and remind yourself that you matter, even when it feels like you don’t. You’re not alone, and it’s okay to ask for help. Please take care of yourself—you’re worth it. 