Right now I feel dirty and I feel like I hate myself and Im having thoughts of wishing I was never born. Maybe Im kind of feeling this way because I watched gore today.
Hey user6114,
I hear about your experiences with gore content that came across as something that hit you quite suddenly. It’s clear that you felt raw and having to process meaning was not something that sat well with you. And the part about wishing you were never born reads, just to clarify if you meant more like the pain talking in the moment, instead of a plan or intention?
Gore is not something people naturally encounter in an ordinary day. It is understandable that your body reacted strongly.
I hope that I am not imposing my thoughts, you said “dirty.” but are you feeling because it’s about your system responding to something disturbing? The meaning you made of the image is the driver of the reaction; fear, sadness, or even anguish. Those emotions are signals that the content crossed a threshold for you.
If you are comfortable sharing, what was the first thought that appeared when you saw the image? Not the self-hate that came after, but the immediate meaning your mind attached to it. We just stay with what is here, at a pace that feels manageable.
Hey @user6114 ,
Thank you for sharing your feelings on this platform. I hear that watching gore content have triggered some difficult feelings inside you, like feeling “dirty”, feelings of hating yourself, and feelings that wishing you’re never born. If you’re comfortable sharing, what comes to your mind when you had these feelings? Or what came to mind when watching the gore content?